I been poopin a lot lately. More then unusual. You would think i would lose weight. But not even an ounce. I blame my edema for this. My whole body is swollen up. I feel over heated because of the humidity. Yes, I am taken water pills. My mom is coming home Sunday. With my brother. I am not lookin forward to this. Because she is always on my case. I know i have to leave early before she wakes up. Because she tells me what to do . To do something for her. She can not do anything for herself. I know her boyfriend does everything for her. But he is 85 years old. He is hard of hearing. Maybe that is why he can put up with her, My brother does everything for her . He is mommy's boy now. Maybe he was mommy's boy all along.
Wait a minute i have to poop again... GEE
OK. I am back. I just talk to my Johnny. He just got his new car. He was so excited. He told me. My new car is beautiful. I bet. I ask him if i could drive it. He said NO. Of course not. I ask him if he could drive it to our wedding. Then i can drive my monster truck. WHOMP.
I don't want an fairy tail wedding. Like the ones i see on TV or hear about . On some website. LOL NO. I want a Crazy unique Dinosaur wedding. ( Monster).
I told you yesterday. I am a former Miss Universe Queen. My edema and my mother shuts down my self esteem. I feel like s--- sometimes. I just got to remember I was a beauty Queen. Even Miss world . My Johnny where are you I cry in the bathroom. Why must i wait so long? I think my wedding will never happen. I got to keep my faith in God he will help us. I just know it.
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