in this moment i hate my self why i pushing my self to somedody i really love and i dont know why i do this this... the only thing i know is i love him . we coth know how deep the love i give to him but he always blame at me de tell to his friend that where detting an lq and he always orettebding that we are ok i the second he cheet in me .
i want too be honest to him but he didnt he always lying to me and i try to understand him but he was breaking uo his promise i want to let him go on the point i want to hurt my self.
i want to get time i want to end this but idont know how in give him every thing i lie to my family and cheat to aybody that we are ok .. how can i tell him in the way i need to pls him every time i wabt to last this love and cherish the momment with him but he always sayin g theres no problem .
i was always in influences of alcohol i want to be happy in the short period of time and i want to feel im ok but not