September 19th, 2012

Today is off to a kinda good start I slept good. I cried about how my fiance is so far away and we haven't talked or seen each other in a long period of time. I need a ipod or a phone that uses wifi so that i can talk to him. I ended up balling last night. I had the container that had all his note he gave me and when I opened the container and instantly it was a breeze of his smell. That is when I started to ball! He hasnt replied to my email yesterday. I've been emailing him like crazy! I cant get my mind off of him he is the love of my life! Why is my life like this!? Why does he have to leave me? I never wanted to leave so far away from me! I love him so much and he doesn't know how much! I cant wait to see him once again. I cant wait till the day i turn 18 cuz ill be gone and out of the house at midnight. He will be waiting outside and midnight ill bring everything out to the car. Then ill get married on my 18th birthday! We have it all planed out! :) I really cant wait to see him! He is my WORLD! -Princess Ymker