Blog Posts by Jessica

Oh how I have longed for this day to come. ... cough cough..
Ok so today is the first day of the new fall semester and I have to get used to all the new professors in my college. The worst part is I actually can not wait to see what work I get to do. It is like I am a school junky or something. I do not understand why I get off so much on school. I love where I attend and everyone there is generally nice.
All in all I m scared s---less and a body full of nerves. My tummy is doing about a million flips right now and I hate the first day thing. I get to have three first days since I have Monday and Wednesday the same, Tuesday and Thursday the same, and then I have Friday. I have to leave now.....
anyone who has blus about the first day or are a junky ....tell me what to do to get rid of the nerves.........

Why are guys so interested in porn. I mean you seen one you seen them all right!
Well recently my fiance and I had a heated talk about him and why he kept downloading porn. I told him that it made me fell like he desired other women and did not want anything that I had. I asked him if he was getting bored with me since he already had what all I had to offer him. Of course I get the "no, not at all .I love you " talk. Yet He still looks at porn on the internet.
Now I m not one to talk because back in the puberty days of teen life, I was looking up porn like crazy. After a while it got old and uninteresting. The only time I look up porn is to find new styles to try in the bedroom.
I am nt sure what to say to him or how to even approach this sitiation with him.

ok so my boyfriend came and spent almost a whole week at my house this past weekend and well it was really fun. we connected in a whole new way and that was totally rad. i felt a litlle like a child on my way of thinking and it felt like he was talking down to me...kinda like i didnt understand him so he had to dumb it down a bit. that makes me a little pissed off and a little sad. he got to see me when i go into my depression a little bit. he got to see what happens when my mom drinks and goes off on me. he got to see what its kinda like when i get made at my mom for saying stupid s**t. he got to see what some of my inner demons are( my eating disorder, cutting, depression etc.). i showed him a project that i have to do for psychology, he didnt react the way i thought he would. it was on eating disorders. i just wanted him to say good job.....thats it...but he didnt...he took it way to far with the emotional side..yeah so what if i have it....i was just showing him MY WORK, i wasnt

I have this amazing guy who i call Love or Mr. Wonderful. I wasn't able to see Love for 2weeks. This weekend he cme down. I feel so much more in love with him. Everytime I looked into his eyes or seen him smile, it was all in slow motion. KInda ike Every single second was being memorized and engrained into my mind. I can see his face right now, I can smell his shampoo, Feel his hands on my face, the Tender kiss atop my head, th elook in his eyes as i laugh. I can remeber every second of it. I love him so much. The part that blows me aways is that we have only been going out 2months.......

This weekend Love brought his taser with him..This thing is sooooo freaking kool... I wanted to get shocked but my dad said no...of course.. Anyways, my mom got tasered by a cop so she didnt like it...she made a comment something to the effect of get ride of it bc it makes me uncomfortable...so Love just unplugs it and "throws it be hind his back n to the ground". If i could have captured the way my