Blog Posts by Kelly

I read what someone posted, that I should be a friend to myself. I have to admit I agree and have come to the same conclusion. The reality is change is an indifferent experience. It causes one to be more honest with yourself because the you are no longer comfortable. I must admit I am appreciating my current circumstance more than I have in the past. Presently, I am looking for schools for my son. I had no idea how competitive it is to find a decent grammar school. I was aware yet, to experience this ...lets just say is disheartening. The lovely city where I reside your local taxes pay for the school yet, my neighborhood is great. honestly, but the surrounding neighborhoods are questionable. it is amazing how city blocks change so quickly in the windy city. You have to have your child tested for public schools. I have a friend whose child tested very well and their child was wait listed for every school. That makes no sense. Therefore, the other option is to pay. There is one school

I wonder is it possible to have a lot of friends and still consider yourself alone? Well, I believe it is truly possible. The reality, all of my friends are married. I know in this day and age where people shack up before they are married and then maybe get married. I am so serious all of my friends are married. I must admit i am truly happy and excited about their relationships. yet, my friends are no longer my friends. I understand change is an adjustment. It is just harder to adjust when it feels as though you are the only one not progressing. Actually, the adjustment is the change in my interaction with my friends. As much as we use to speak it no longer happens so often. I understand a marriage takes dedication as well my friends are building a life with their significant other.

So now the next step is how to find new friends? That is the conundrum of all time. Forget who shot Kennedy how do we find new friends when our old (shoe) fits so perfectly. I mean the time is takes to

So I have had the conversation with the guy and it went alright. I have no idea how he felt but I do know how I feel. This sucks. There is no way around it this truly sucks. I understand that every decision has consequences and etc. yet, I can not deny how I feel about this guy. I don't want to give that up. So I guess the quest is to find out how I can be with him rather can we truly maintain a relationship despite this? The reality is that it may not be possible yet, you never know. This is who and where I am right. I am not a mess but my heart is hurt. I know for a fact that he had string feelings but I guess they are not strong enough. Alright, Not much else to say. Peace

So, where have I been busy. Working on my business and to everyone who owns or wants to own their own busy the sacrifice is great yet, working for yourself is soooooo rewarding. So there was this guy that I absolutly cared about and he left and before he left we had a conversation about.....of course a relationship and where are we going. He tells me that I don't know what the future holds. Honestly, none of us do yet, you do know if you want a future with an indiviual or not. So of course I cried because I have known this person for years. He comes back and guess what, he is dating. Isn't that amazing...now he has taken a chance on someone and he would not do that with me. Does that hurt, like hell it does rather it did. So, we have spoken about it and guess what he tells me that the woman he is dating stated that if he would have ended up with me that she would not have had a chance to be with him. Wow, and I hear a hand clap from me.........lol. Right, so you date and tell the

I began the day saying my prayers and studying for my Sunday school class. As I mention I am extremely happy for being a member of the senior saints class. I am expected to learn a lot. So Monday was blah if that makes any sense. It was an ordinary day. So, today I should hear some good news. I am so excited. I really want a concrete date so my business can finish our first project. As I have mention working for yourself is a 24 hour job. If anyone has a great way to raise capital at no cost please let me know.....lol. I went to my exercise class and I was actually able to keep up. I did miss some steps but everyday it gets easier and easier. I must admit I had a slice of carrot cake. It was delicious and I savored every minute of it. Now for Easter dinner I am bringing dessert and guess what it is. I have made a decision no to apply for assistance for my sons preschool education. I am not in a position to afford the schools he use to attend and I refuse to go into debt. Therefore, I

As I stated the other day, if I turn up married in a week know it is a sham. I went out with some friends to celebrate a birthday and guess who was the only single person. So, I know some would say this must bother you and I have to admit it is not that it bothers me rather, I dislike not having someone to talk to. There is always a moment when couples good or bad go into this moment where they are the only ones there. I get it. I must admit I didn't long to be with any one and I think that is a great accomplishment for me. Trust me it is. So we took pictures and my hair let's just say this transitioning phase is a commitment. Even though I did not like how I looked in the picture I know it is all temporary. The picture also reminded me one, I need to continue to go to my exercise classes, two I need to work on my insecurities, and three I need to buy clothes that fit. If you are over weight the worst thing to do is purchase clothes that do not fit. My clothes are not baggy yet, they

I was reading an a interview in O magazine with a monk. It was a good article yet, I found it very insightful on how to become more present now instead of expecting or anticipating the future. I know for some it may not be that profound yet, for me it is. It is because even though I am having a hard time. I still need to enjoy this moment and understand the lessons that I am being taught. So my hair is transitioning and it is changing everyday. I am so excited. I know for some this made seem a bit weird yet, I am enjoying embracing my natural hair. I know I have to be patient and watch my hair grow. I can not wait to say that all of the perm is out of hair. Not to mention the money I am saving. Hello, spa!!! My best friend and I had a great conversation and I miss her so much. I haven't visited her and I really want to and I realize what hinders me are my finances. I have made plans and at the end of the day I back out because I do not see how I can afford it or once I save enough

So today, I worked, went to the gym and wow lets just say I am enjoying working to improve my life or health. Someone asked me if I was losing weight for them and I stated no. Seriously, if I decided to lose weight for someone it wouldn't last. Me question is has anyone ever felt stagnant? I am watching my friends travel and etc. I know everyone has a budget and man do I have one. Actually, I have no money and it sucks. I know there is someone who has ever been in this position and I am sorry you have to go through this. It is hard yet, the one person I can rely on is God. Has anyone ever felt.........bitter or jealous. I am trying my hardest not become that type of person. I am watching my friends do so many things I want to do at this moment and all I am doing is figuring out how to make sure my son stays in the school he attends. I honestly, can not afford it and I will have to take him out and he may never return. All I can say is that I am disappointed with myself yet, what can I