Blog Posts by klasheroor

I hate my self when I loosing my temper when me and my papa argue for something. I really hate my self when I cry to my mothers memory. I hate my self seeing her 2nd wife having a good life instead of me and my brother . I hate all the things happen this past 8years and now I was facing the life alone with my caring live in partner without thinking our future it was to early for that. I hate my self repeating the past i've done sparing too my father what I am now which is not right. I hate my sister in laws and brother even the wife of my brother. I hate my self because of my stupidness here I am now telling the world that I am stupid very stupid, damn, and shellfish. I mean it all the bad things I do and nw I want to change who I am now.

in this moment i hate my self why i pushing my self to somedody i really love and i dont know why i do this this... the only thing i know is i love him . we coth know how deep the love i give to him but he always blame at me de tell to his friend that where detting an lq and he always orettebding that we are ok i the second he cheet in me .

i want too be honest to him but he didnt he always lying to me and i try to understand him but he was breaking uo his promise i want to let him go on the point i want to hurt my self.

i want to get time i want to end this but idont know how in give him every thing i lie to my family and cheat to aybody that we are ok .. how can i tell him in the way i need to pls him every time i wabt to last this love and cherish the momment with him but he always sayin g theres no problem .

i was always in influences of alcohol i want to be happy in the short period of time and i want to feel im ok but not

in the first i was really mad at him because he dosent care about my feeling and i decide to go home and stay away for good i though its just fine to me ii think i was thinking that its twas good for us . while im in the bus i stair in the view outside i dont think anything and suddenly my tear fall down in my cheeks i dont know why but i started too cry in the bus . Ijust want him to grow up and become independent and i want him to have a jib for our future.
dont he even think i just want him to stands by its for us in the nor future mmhh.

this week i did a nouthy deeds like cheating and gambling but the reason todo that becuase i what to earn money for my selfish and brode reason.

i was afraid that somebody notice that im laying and i dont know how to react but first of all i want make sure that someday i will return it all after the year i finished my study and also i dont what to discover that last year i not finish my second and spend my tuition in some unnecessary stuff that all i just what to trick them and i dont want to oblige them for what i've done and i will face all the consequences they give to me.

last wensday i and my friend angel go to my father work.couse of some important reason ....
i saw my wicked step mother and i so her gay and wicked face..!!



ahh!!! im feels like my temper runnig through my veins and i want too kick her ass to the high way!! she look i look her straigth to her eyes my sigth become dim and i want to kil her and skined her alive....

and then i wait to my father i feel really angry becouse of all what she doe to me and all the hurts feeling i experiece whe i was o there border hahahah!!!



i want take off all her hair and then i left a momment too buy some water the i saw my father he shout of me becouse the only reason i bring my friend and he gave a moey and i left i dont know what pokpok tell too my father but i promise to my self that all what happend to i will return all of them all the tears and pain i felt i garratte iwill revage

now i have a relationship i hope it would be last for this time i been love twice this month.this two boys was a good friend but they both linked to me i dont know how but i loved them both.

now i love the 2nd guyb we are two weeks now and i wish this relationship will lasrt maybe couple a year or month he respect me

ngayung araw nasa school ako sa labas nga lang tas umaambon hindi maganda ang panahin at medyo makulimlim.This morning i woke up and study in our mid term its an ordinary to a studentto study.Then i text my buddy dessiree to woke up early so that i have an acompanion then i miscall tena mascom student to woke up.Then my pardz johndel.Its a pretty morning to me couz my love smile at me this morning i answer well in my x-sam.
Its a good start this morning i hope it continue till nigth . the another one is my family my wiched step mother i wish that she will lose this morning no trace and no sign of her.

ang hirap umintindi ng mga taong di moalam kung ano talaga ang intensyon sayo.ang hirap maniwala sa mga taong kala mo mahal ka yun pala kasinungalinagan lang pala lahat...
Do i let them do this to me syempre hindi.Perro kahit gusto ko syang sapakinbakit hindi ko kaya ganun ba talaga nakaka-asar.
Gusto kong umiyak kaso hindi ko kaya ewan ko lang talaga!!!!!






Kaso bakit ganon naasar na talaga ako mmmfffhh!!!