So many choicesA while back a man told me he loved me. I was a bit surprised because it is usually me who gets so caught up. I whispered softly, "Do you really?" My heart heaving huge thuds, hoping against hope that it was not an accidental slip of the tongue. "Because I love you too."
He stopped in that moment and seemed confused, "I mean I think I do. To be perfectly honest it might just be in this moment."
Ahhh. There it is. That double edged sword that stabs so deeply and hurts from both sides of it. It is not that his loving in the moment is not good enough or is not real but I want to know what happens in the other moments. I questioned myself "in this moment". How can I judge the way someone else loves? Who am I to do this?
I realized that I can only control my own reaction and I can only accept what I can live with. Being loved in a moment, a single moment, a few moments here and there when things are wonderful-is not what I can live with. I want to still be the one who is lovedRead More »from Deciding to Decide