I was at the super market last week when at the check out line the
cashier placed my chocolate bar in my bag, smiled, and said,
"when are you due." Calmly I murmured, "two years
ago." She continued to smile and decided to cover herself by
explaining that she asked because she thought I was having a
pregnancy craving for chocolate. My husband smiled nervously and
picked up the bags as I paid. We left the store, him holding our
bags and me holding my stomach. "I had no idea," he said
sympatheticly. "That makes twelve," I responded
sadly.
I'm a small woman. Five foot two in a size four jean and a
32-D, which by the way practically does not exist. Not skinny, but
small, I have few curves except my breasts and the mid line of my
stomach which when I look down protrudes nearly past my breasts on
any day that I feel the least bit bloated, and it does not look
much better when I'm not.
I have a bagful of excuses, my birth control keeps my uterus
swollen, I never did have a flat stomach in my exercise obsessed
teen days, I've become depressed, I spend 50 hours a week
between work and school, my husband won't go to the gym with
me... .... ... I can keep going on with this all day but the truth
is it's all my own damn fault and I know it. Why oh why did I
have to buy that chocolate bar! I keep telling myself, "I only
weigh 130, what's a chocolate bar." I keep reminding
myself that guys still turn their heads when I walk by. I walk by
the gym and think, "hm, I can walk in there or I can walk out
here," then never bother to go in. Of course, i walk strait to
the nearest Taco Bell.
I know I need to make a change if I ever want people to stop asking
if I'm pregnant, and advice abounds, but I just can't bring
myself to do it. I don't have the motivation to make a
change.
Have you ever found yourself in this predicament, knowing you have
to stop something. Knowing if you don't you'll just keep
getting your feelings hurt and continue to beet yourself up. Let me
know. In the meantime, I need a donut.
When are your due? Two years ago.
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Posted by Sat Nov 14, 2009 9:59am PST
Report AbuseWhen asked, "when are you due?," answer by asking "how long have you had that scar on your face?" (meaning their mouth) If they say, "I meant nothing by that." Respond with "Neither did I."
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Posted by Sat Nov 14, 2009 10:34am PST
Report AbuseI would have answered "the same day you are." I wouldn't take it personally, that clerk probably doesn't know when to shut up anyway. They all talk too much for my liking. Chatting away with each other while ringing up your groceries, it's just plain rude.
I felt similar to you about my size; I'm 146 lb. 5ft. 2" wear a size 12 and am 58 y.o. I keep trying to lose a few but have not success and refuse to starve myself anymore. Well, after reading in a few magazines how these women think they are gorgeous after losing 50 lbs and are now 158 lb. I don't feel to bad at 146 lb. It's all how you look at it. I do however refuse to buy bigger clothes and will make sure I stay a size 12 for the rest of my life. If I do start to lose weight it will be unintentionally and I'll know I have cancer because that's how it always happens. I am a Hospice RN and see this all the time. Love yourself the way you are if you are healthy.
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Posted by Sun Nov 15, 2009 8:01pm PST
Report AbuseYes. I'm soooo where you are. I can't seem to go a day without some form of sugar or carb in my mouth. The more I try to be good, the badder I get. Even with diabetes - the threat of amputated limbs and having no feeling in my extremities - I can't seem to stop. Oh, and by the way.... I used to be a 32 D and you're so right, it doesn't exist. Stay strong and love yourself no matter what.
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Posted by Mon Nov 16, 2009 2:01pm PST
Report Abusethe key to weight loss is water. the more water you drink the more fat your body pushes out,I don't mean cups I mean bottles,fruits like cranberries,strawberrys and apples burn fat also read labels on everything you eat and try to keep the grams of fat under 40 a day also if your drinking soda stop- if you take my advise you will be dropping pounds like crazy.
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