I am here now.
I am here
today.
I am here right now.
If I
had a hundred more years to live,
I would not now
be the more here than I am.
If I had only one more
week to live,
I would not now be any the less here
than I am.
This day, this hour, this minute would
be the same,
Whether I had three days left—or three
hundred years.
The length of light does not change
how bright the flame.
I am caught between flowers
and fears,
Between the beautiful bright reality of
now,
And all my fears of what the future may
be;
The great fear: that the future may be
pain.
The greatest fear: that the future may not
even be.
Whenever I can, I must let go of these
fears.
They do not give me one second more of
life,
Let alone save me from losing
years.
Instead, the world—despite prospects of
breaking blight,
Still with blessings running rich
and rife—
Loses its magic when frozen by fears,
becoming bereft of light.
Even though I am afraid,
I can still be brave.
Fear will not save me from
the grave.
To have courage to fight through the
fear,
Can help me make the most of now being
here.
And help me make the best of what I’ve got,
while I’ve got it.
Fear cannot stop the coming
night;
Fear only diminishes the dwindling
day.
And what of all my deep regret and bitter
sorrow?
This truth to say:
Regret
and sorrow only take away from today;
They do not
give me one tomorrow.
I must seek peace before I
cease.
I must seize the remainder of my life
somehow,
And be here now.
--by M.L.P.
aka PoetWithCancer, aka Mr. Poet
Copyright © 2009 by M.L.P. All rights reserved
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Posted by Wed Nov 25, 2009 11:45pm PST
Report AbuseA very good write, PWC. Hope you have a good Thanksgiving.
Have a good evening.
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Posted by Sat Nov 28, 2009 1:48pm PST
Report AbuseHi Mr. Poet
Hope you are doing fine. I've been busy visiting with my Dad at the hospital. 3 weeks ago, he had a cancerous tumor removed. All went well. The power of prayer is amazing!!!!!!
I liked this new poem, full of hope and gratefulness too :)
Please stay strong, lots of people are praying for you too!
Your friend,
Gypsy woman
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Posted by Sat Nov 28, 2009 1:52pm PST
Report AbuseGod Bless You!!!!! BigRon
Well put..................
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Posted by Sat Nov 28, 2009 2:18pm PST
Report AbuseGod bless you PWC!! I hope you had a nice Thanksgiving. You are in our hearts and in our prayers too! (((hugs)))!!!!! Amy
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Posted by Sat Nov 28, 2009 2:32pm PST
Report AbusePWC,
Your ability to express yourself always amazes me.
Today is special, to many of us.
I cannot change my past, or guarantee my future.
But I can seize "today" and make the best of it.
Know there are many on this journey with you.
You have touched many a soul.
Love,
Super A
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Posted by Sat Nov 28, 2009 2:34pm PST
Report AbusePWC,
This is the most profound line :
Regret and sorrow only take away from today;
Many a day I've seen of this,
I clean a lifes slate to keep my eyes and heart clear.
A Beautiful poem PWC,
Many clear days for you ahead
Prayers In Full Circle
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Posted by Sat Nov 28, 2009 2:46pm PST
Report AbuseEvenin' Mr. Poet,
Very inspiring poem. I am at a loss for words today after a rough night at Hospice. Very difficult passing for someone who came to us at 6:30 pm and died at 4:00 am. He had a very large family and wife who was in total denial. Spent hours at her side to make certain she was in her best possible state when her beloved husband took his last breath. Even at that moment she said, "he's going to come back." It was then I hugged her and said, "no." I've slept most of today both from exhaustion and just not wanting to get up and do basically nothing of any consequence. My work is so intense that sometimes everyday life is just too boring for me. That's when I'm glad to have my painting. Sometimes it's the only thing that can make me feel alive; when I create something beautiful. I often say my paintings are like "giving birth to a child" and now I realize it's the opposite of being a Hospice nurse and dealing with death; that's why my paintng is so important to me.
I hope you've had a good day. Wish I could say more, do more.
Carol
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Posted by Sat Nov 28, 2009 3:44pm PST
Report AbuseYou make it easy to relate for those who have no idea.
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Posted by Sat Nov 28, 2009 7:11pm PST
Report AbuseMr. Poet-- I loved what you wrote on Angela's blog. I wasn't going to say that, but, I read your "about me" and you said if we read what you write, to let you know.
I wish I could say that I would be changed from it, but I have been around long enough to know that I have deceived myself before with the lie that I would change, forever, into a perfectly compassionate human being after reading something so profound. The truth is, it is a minute by minute decision to treat others with compassion, and not let petty differences get in the way of that. In a way, I envy you your position of seeing things with such clarity, although I'm sure you'd trade that position for almost anything.
I really enjoyed this current poem too. It's a great statement to those of us who don't know our time is limited, and who need to be reminded of what is truly important.
God bless you. Thank you for imparting the wisdom that your circumstance has brought you. It is a very self-less thing.
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