Sorry, I think I am "Judgmentally Handicapped" or am I too becoming "Rigid" and who should I blame?

I was introduced to Shine via a friend after sharing my interest in returning to school and finding a new career with her.  With out reading a word, "one of my many mistakes", I sent out my first blog and/or question here.  No response, yet not at all shocked after taking the time too actually "read" many articles, blogs, comments within this site.  I was looking and hoping to find an encouraging place too view while researching my options. At first, I even wanted unbiased, yet professional advice and opinions, especially since I have been in hiding for awhile.  Truth be told I have neglected my "Martha Stuart" duties, let the baby cry a little longer than I normally would, and have strayed from constructive activities in working towards my goal more than once while visiting here.  Why? 

Having three children of which I now have been informed that I am "unfit" too have via here; I find myself very often over-whelmed and disturbed by it all.  Why do I come back?  I have three children and "need" to know exactly what and who I am actually exposing them too every time I allow them to get on the computer, TV, and/or let them leave the house period.  I have been silenced many times in my life and honestly not sure if it is my age and/or that I do have children at this moment that is suddenly knocking down that sound barrier and forcing me to speak louder and maybe even more obnoxiously.

I wish that I could say that my worst mistake in business and/or life for that matter was sending a "hiya/thanx" note to the wrong person/company.  I wish that I could blame my mother, "bitchy" bosses/co-worker's and/or an entire generation for my own personal life choices/mistakes period.    I wish that I could say that "I" am a perfect mother and that only sends her children too the most highly regarded education systems too make sure that they do not make the same "idiotic" mistakes that gives others "something" too blog/complain about.  Shoot, I wish I could say that I have also never "forgotten" and/or "lost" one of my children because that apparently has deemed me "unfit" too be a parent at all.  The poor things; what was God thinking? I guess this is proof that he does have a sense of humor; therefore I shall too.  

On a positive note and in its own "wrong" way, it has all been inspiring as well.  Knowing now that nothing I do will ever be "right", (at least according to several authorities here) has made me realize that I sincerely have nothing to lose in putting myself back out there.  Knowing that well-educated people seriously "get paid" to write and ask some idiotic questions (in "my" opinion) all in an effort too get "raw" women together out there in the name of profit is well, simply and disturbingly encouraging for myself and admittedly from what I have seen here, smart on their (corp) part.


 P.S. Please feel free too get out your dictionaries and rip my grammar into shreds.  Thank you too those formal, professional, well-educated, and "perfect" humans out there for "deciding" who and what the rest of us "mis-fits" are and where we should go.  I am sure this is your first time as well, too be "trashed" though. 

   Seriously, am I the only adult/human/one reading some of these "petty" blogs and/or thinking this way; or am I simply just being too "rigid"? - Jenny