thats bad

I have not written one thing on here. Last updated said never!!!!!! Geeeeeeezzzzz, I didnt know I had to do this, among all the other things I HAVE to do. hmmmmm........ Worry, that was a good artical, sounds like me and my sister.  So glad to see my thoughts in print.  Lets see, gas prices, food prices,  my business is down, tight money. Spring is here, yard work, and more yard work, painted the porch.   Mom died April 17, 2007.  Didnt do a thing last spring, and summer around here.  Sure shows. Now I have 2 springs worth of work to do.  This year the trees have their buds earlier than last spring. I remember every single day after she died. The grief, the weather, the trees, flowers.  Life just keep comming, The earth would not stay still for just one second to grieve. I couldnt believe it, time just kept ticking away. Now its a year passed. I thought the year mark ment something good. It didnt, It was just a way to say---she's been gone a whole year, a year, 365 days since Ive seen her, talked to her, took care of her. Now I have to say its been over a year.  Wonder what 5 years will feel like, or 10 years.  I wonder what she is doing, almost every day.  I keep looking to the sky, the clouds, trying to see her, catch a glimce of her, for a sign. Gone forever from earth, I cant even comprehend that statement.  No signs yet, I might as well face it, there will be no signs from mom.  Life goes on, the yard needs work, so does the house. I worry about money and if I would have to find some other kind of a job just to keep my home and food on the table. No one really realizes just how bad things are right now. There are some people that have very good jobs, and they are not touched by how bad business is.  Gas is $3.69----my Lord, give me a break----the oil companies are making a huge profit---and we have to choose between vegtables and gas..What in Gods' name is going on?????     Oh, there will be more to come...........