So, i'm eating some cake batter right now. I'm making a cake so hopefully I'll feel better. Ya know that commercial where that lady is about to lick the bowl and they're all like "good thing you know you can eat these disgusting snacks instead" it's like good god lick the dang bowl instead no one's gonna die if you do! Jeez...we're all gonna die someday anyways! So yeah I found out I failed that stupid english class I'm taking and I freaked out and was feeling all bad but I just need to realize it's okay I can just re-take it. College is hard, not easy, blahblahblahblahblah. I'm still mad cuz I failed, though. So I'm in a crappy mood cuz of that and I have to go to work in an hour or so. My boss also scheduled me July 4th the day of the concert I'm going to, so I'm mad about that too. July 4th was the only day I'd have to not go to school or work, but now I have to go to work. I won't get home till 11 tonight, then I got to be back there by 10 the next morning, leave at 4, then get home and be ready to go to the concert by 6. No sleep for me...oh well, at least I'll be going to the concert, and at least I'll be spending twice the amount of time I usually get to with my boyfriend friday. I haven't gotten to really talk to him since last Thursday. And it's Thursday today, so a week...I saw him yesterday, but didn't get to talk to him that much, maybe for 5 minutes...My dad's stepmom is dying, so my mom dad and little brother are gone leaving the house to just me and my other brother, which is cool, but they are coming back by friday so bummer,right? Haven't heard from Kelly, course I did blow her off the other day...don't know what to do...same with emily...she's pissed though. I don't care. Move away, have a nice life, leave me out of it. honestly, maybe I shouldnt be an art teacher. I hate school. Alot. and kids. M looked really cute yesterday. So cute. And he was so sweet. He meant it when he said he'd do anything for me if I ever needed anything. He's such a good guy. Yet everyone wants me to dump him just cuz he doesn't have a steady job. I understand though, and I really love him, he doesn't know it though cuz I havent told him yet, but we've been together for almost 9 months now, and I'm not going to dump him. I love him, and I'm sure he'll get a job soon. I just have to wait this thing out. besides, it's not like were getting married any time soon. life's just blah today.