Connecting to your innerself

Hi, my names Kathy. i am going through a change in my life where i want to do more than what i do. Give more to those who have less than me. i want to also connect with nature. Yoga i think is very relaxing. i tried it and i feel horrible! but its okay. i am sore all over but i did things i never thought i could do! i wanted to try tichi or whatever it is. I want to connect with the powers of nature. even though i really dont believe completly in it i still like it. i want to renue myself. so yesterday i lit up like 30 candles in my house. i put one on my tv and nightstand in my bedroom. they melted down and burned out. i was very careless because i forgot about them. i could of burnt the house down! so they dripped everywhere. ruined my tv. ruined my carpet and my 2 shirts right below the tv that got dripped on. if you want to do and try something new, make sure you be careful in what you do and think about it instead of following your hearts and desires. i want to connect to my innerself and with all that kind of stuff i dont know what it is called. i will research more and more about it. i want to really learn!