It has been 6 months since my husband has moved out. To be honest I do not miss him. He was actually cruel to me in emails and by yelling nasty stuff to me before he moved out. I think he was upset because I did not argue back. I asked him what is wrong. As I said before he kept bringing up the things I did 25/30 yrs ago. I cannot fit those things.I think he treated me like that because he was so guilty. I use to think that my husband had more integrity than anyone I know. Now I know that is not true. He also told me he does not lie. I believed him until 7 months ago. I do see my husband twice a month. The two Sat's my grandchildren are here. I try to be as polite as I can be to him. I don't want the grand kids seeing us argue over stupid things like my grocery list was not by isle. Yes I have to write it isle by isle. My husband does the shopping because sometimes I am too tire to go. Also he does not like to take all of us(grandkids and me). I think he feels it takes too much of his time. My husband will also take me to my doctor's appt. I try to get them all on one day. The best I can do is 3. The other apt I make for 2 weeks later, I do give him ten dollars in gas to take me to the doctors. He can sit in his truck and read a book. I don't want him in the room with me because my health is none of his business anymore. Besides he said once the quicker I die the happier he will be.The easier it will be for him to live his NEW(he did not say NEW,I did)life.I PLAN ON SHOWING HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!! Health wise I am not doing to bad. My asthma and allergies were terrible this pass week. But I was able to turn my 02 down from 4 to 3 liters. I really don't feel any different. I can still clean my house. As I said it takes me about 4 days.I am thinking when the market picks up a little I hope my husband will agree to sell this house,split the profits. I will get an apartment across the street. Still close to the grand kids. I want to sell it before it falls apart. My husband said he will do the back and front yard that has to be done soon. He does not stay on top of it like he use too.I can't keep the inside as clean as I want it to be. I just don't have enough lung function. I cannot afford a housekeeper.I also want to clear up what I said about my daughter.That was not the only reason she disowned me. Her and I bumped heads a lot as she was growing up. I wasn't a very good mother. I did not teach her to spread her wings and fly. I regret that. Like I said the only regrets I have involve my daughter. I have tried and tried to get her to forgive me. She will not. She is a lot like her father, unemotional,cold,and unfeeling. The funny thing is. Her father yelled and scream and called my daughter all types of names when she left her husband. My husband could not stand the fact she was still married and living with a man. But he only called her names to me,only said nasty things about her to me. He knew I would never tell her that her father felt that way about it. That was up to him. But even when she was little he did not want any father responsibility's. It all feel on me. He did not want to be the bad guy.I on the other am Italian. Need I say more..................I think Not
