Im a TOYS-R-US kid!!!

I do not want to grow up. Its so sucky. Im trying hard to be the best person I can, and with that comes a bunch of hardships. Jeez, I just want to be ignorant and blissful. I go to school, and with that comes knowledge of what the world is really about. I dont like it. I like being happy and cheerful, and I feel like lately Ive grown to be more and more pessimistic. My Dad is a great example; He went to college for 17 years. Hes a freaking genius and hes also a freaking groutch. He is the darkest person I know. Always complaining and yelling. He never enjoys life. Hes just so wrapped up in all the bad stuff about it. I dont want to be like that. Then I look at my friends, a motley crew at best, and I see them drinking and smoking 7 days a week. They seem so happy, but I know I could not do that. I just cant bring myself to being a "loser", since I know the difference I should be striving for the best, right? This is where I start getting depressed, I dont have a model of the middle clas. Its either go to school forever and hate your life, or be a total slacker and mooch off every opportunity. I just wish I could find someone or some people like myself. I like to have fun and party, but only after Ive worked and gone to school all day. JEEz!!!!!