It hurts me inside out

3 months. My menstrual is really bothering me. There's no significant bleeding from inside. I wonder if I'm... No other signs of pregnancy, I might be just being stressed out. Keeping my fingers crossed...



It's been months. I still trying to get over. But the truth is, I just can't. Though I try really hard to pretend like I don't care. My pride put me in a place of no turning back. I can fool everyone but not myself. I ignored, but my heart draw me to you, again and again...

The reality is cruel, I know. I really hope you read this. But I know you wouldn't bother anymore. I'm just a toy after all. That's what I'd been. A toy! For any girl, I think nothing feels worse than being toyed. Of course, you have other girl friends to lean on... I guess what I feel doesn't matter to you. That's the point of the whole toying pleasure, isn't it? To look down at me when I suffer from the pain that I get from you!