jeez

um i'm not really sure how to start, lets see i have 3 older sib.s and one younger one. my story isn't the worst out there so i understand if it sounds like i'm whinning but, i just cant take it any more, the presure of school, peers, parents and other things. i mean i weigh more than my mom does, and my dad calles me fat on a regular basis, my litle sister is the @$$ hole from hell an follows my big sis
K.s steps like a lap dog my brother tryed to kill me multiple times and my oldest sister A. spends so much time thinking about traveling she doesn't have any time for her family any more. and me? well i try my hardest, to be what every one wants me to be but, it hurts my heart to try and be someone i'm not. in school they tell us to be our selfs. but how can i tell who i am if i never get the chance to be me. and yes i know you are going to write something that says to stand up for myself, to take charge. but before you do think about the fact that all i want to do is help my family, my friends, basically everyone to have peace. and if that means i can only show my true feelings to people who don't know my true name, then so be it.