Just stuff..

Finally got a job after months of fruitless looking.... I was beginning to wonder if anything was ever going to happen.  I will be working with developmentally challenged people. 
I think it's a pretty awesome job for someone who has no job experiance for 9+ yrs! I even applied at McD's...They never called thank God.  Truely.  I think this job will open alot of doors once I get past the probationary period and fall into a fulltime position.
     I started chatting with this guy from a dating site tonight that happens to live in the town I'll be working.....and find myself scared to go out for even lunch.  I think Im scared of what he may think of me.
I should just go out and not even care but.....wait...no but's...
What the heck am I doing??? Do I even know?  Im sure not the same person that moved here little more than a year ago just learning about my divorce.....
Sooooooooooo, Im gonna hike up my pants and go out if Im asked why the heck not!!! Ya know...and it is only lunch...We'll see if he asks me again or not.  Might have scared him who knows.

     Besides that Im really thinking about fasting.  I've done alot of research on the subject and feel prepared to do it, I just need to grow some balls and shove the gag in my gullet and I'll be good to go! haha