I have always known that people are prone to changing. However it has really hit home this past year. People that you thought in your heart of hearts would always be there are not.
One of my best friends since 8th grade (i'm 22 now) atempted to stir drama w/in my family following the death of my mom. I've literally saved this girls life on several occassions. Always stood up for her. She had always be so dramatic... always doing whatever it took to get the spotlight.... (hmmm so I guess THAT didn't change).... What did change was the way she did it.
My other best friend who was like a brother to me since about 8th or 9th grade has abandoned me completely. He has proven his disloyalty and his order of priorities in his life. I was there for him through every hard, sad, glad and mad time. I listened to his regrets, thoughts, and even shared in his pain and joy. We had never even had a disagreement or fight. Now he has changed. He doesn't check on me following my mom's death (who was like a 2nd mom 2 him)... he stands me up after asking me to clear my schedule.... he wasn't there when a close friend of mine passed 2 days before my b-day. After ignoring my txt msgs and calls he sends a txt msg to my phone at 12:37am saying happy b-day like nothing was wrong... i haven't heard anymore from him.
Maybe it is time for me to change. Maybe it is time for me to follow the "golden rule" in reverse. Perhaps I should start treating ppl the way they treat me. As much as I would love to... I can't. I can act like I don't care and ignore them back...... but I would prob. still help them in a life or death situation. It just hurts to always be that good friend and to know what it is to care and continue to be treated like crap. What is wrong with ppl. I've explored myself. I have asked others.... it all comes out the same.... it's not me... its them....
