Performing tomorrow night

It's about that time again. 24 hours before a performance and I'm grappling with my anxiety disorder and my indecisiveness, lol. I can't decide which songs to do. I keep getting nervous about trying songs that I haven't tried before in front of people. I'm not sure how they will take my music. I don't have the foggiest idea, haha. It gets scary sometimes. I don't know how my husband even deals with me. I know I scare him half to death every time I wig out about this. I'm not going to quit though. I'm going to keep fighting and striving to be the best that I can be. Last week I wrote a post about Lil Wayne. Someone commented by telling me I shouldn't worry about him. She was partially right. I should just focus on myself. I'm not so much worried about Lil Wayne as I am about the African American youth of the world. I just feel that there should be more of us (positive male and female hip hop figures) out there that they can look up to. Most of the rap music today is such a horrid display of all the wrong behaviors and conduct. It teaches the youth the wrong things to strive for: Money, sex, drugs, guns. WTF? That bothers me. I remember when we had rap artists that we could look up to: Queen Latifah, Mc Lyte, Tupac, etc. I say Tupac because he had some very inspirational songs that he put out and he didn't glorify the negative things so much. He was not perfect but he was a great lyricist/poet and I can name several songs of his that were very inspirational. Anyway, I'm just trying to do my thing. I give insight in my music and tell stories about places I've been and things that I have been through. I cuss sometimes but one thing I stay away from is the slut image. Hip hop does not have to be about that and I don't believe you have to carry yourself like a tramp to be a successful female rap artist. Look at Queen Latifah. She's the female don of hip hop and I never once saw her carry herself in that way. She is one of my favorite artists. Anyway, I have a very old school style about myself. The best way I can explain my type of music is to post a link to Gangsta Superman. I'ts sort of my theme song. We (me and DJ Tektonic) performed this last month at the Blue Marlin and got a good response. Actually Gangsta Superman gets a lot of good responses from people who appreciate the origin of rap and the old school style: Rap with meaning. The song isn't perfect and the video is FAR from perfect. It was kind of budget video I went out and made with my son in my home town, lol. I think people like it for the substance though. The words and the meaning. It's doing really well on Jango. I pulled in quite a few fans with it. Well I better go. I just wanted to write a note as I haven't written in a few days. I have a lot of practicing to do. Good night to anyone who may see this. Other places you can hear our music at: http://www.jango.com/profiles/41785952?l=0 http://www.myspace.com/camburnspits http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_ss_3_7?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=camburn+biography&sprefix=camburn