as i got to thinking about this, it sounds more and more true. although this is an inevitable truth at best, no living thing can possibly avoid it. this is the struggle we must all face. my reoccurring thought is to be thinking about this as i lay dying. If that were the case it wouldn't necessarily be a peaceful ending. Most have a goal to leave some kind of legacy to be remembered by,someone, even after they have been gone to this earth.the conundrum remains: why does the most popular question in the world have such a bleak scientific reality? Now that i think about it its so clear.and i have been wondering to myself how i could not have seen this before. I have payed attention to the lives of my elders throughout my 14 years and in having thoughts about life and death- weather it be situational or a happening,i see some having a great life. and some having a what seems to be a self inflicted tortuous time. In the end, they all end up the same, a body with a life cycle.and if there is a god, in which i do not currently believe in, ( because i believe in the relativity of scientific explanations) could we all be puppets in his play? maybe we are the size of protozoa in another world where everything is essentially the same as ours, just bigger. but as i say that to myself, i do not see that being able to be put into scientific terms. someday i hope i will have the answer. HOPE: another thing i believe to be created by the human mind. for if there is a god, is there not this "plan" of his i have heard about? if he is real, all you could hope for is that his "plan" does not fail. ( if you believe in god)
you hear of the children in Africa almost daily on American television. we all know the prologue, if you will, of their issues. but i know most Americans cant even begin to imagine. i have friends and relatives who are religious and all of them have faith in a higher deity, but when i presented some of them with the age old question in my mind, they had no answer. IF THERE IS A GOD, WHY WOULD HE END HIS CREATION IN WHICH HE CLAIMS TO LOVE WITH AN APOCALYPSE? when i thought to myself about this i found myself thinking about the mental illness dissociative identity disorder because i cant figure why you would want to destroy something you supposedly loved. for example: i love mikhail ( my boyfriend) , and i would NEVER want to end him. and if god is able to love his creations, he must have other human emotions, meaning he is not what many people percieve to be godly. how can he be a supreme being? what if god is really a scientist in a larger world playing with microganisms that happen to be us? our lives would mean even less to him than somone we dont know in another country in our earth. meaning there would be way more important things in the universe we have not yet dicovered. now we are just left to think. what are we missing?
best,
roo
