Smile

Most emotions are just one big sad story.
When i see a smile - I break in two.
When i see a frown - i smile.
When someone laughs - i choke.
When someone yells - i cry.
This little sad world of my mine, seems so dull and bleak.
I try to get by the time but time traps me.
I have been scarred by memories.
Memories of hate and love.
These two words are the worlds biggest problem.
One cannot love without hating in the end.
The world spins and i wonder will we ever get sick of it.
I try to see how fast we are going.
Time is a place and it is lonely.
 In our times of just seeing every moment passing by.
When a butterfly grows it just turns cold in the end.
When i was born I wondered.
When the blades cut my wrist.
All time stops just to see how much i hurt.
I walk the woods.
Trying to find someone or something special to me.
I stay until dark comes.
Just to see the clouds turn from red to yellow.
This moment is my memory of a new hope.
A hope that i wish that will never end.
At home is another story.
Till then I can wait.
Stop time to think about the clouds and its kingdoms.
I will tell time to take me there.
There is the only place i can think.
Think without fear of hurting myself.
Think of love and hate.
Bring the longing of being loved and turn to scar my tears.
Tears can be scarred.
Depending on what happened.
If it was hate.
Then hate will burn the tear.
The tear will be scarred for eternity.
An eternity that will never stop.
Thats when you know time stopped.