Summer Two

Can't get him off my mind suddenly. Booo!!! So I shall blog.
I'm feeling kinda emotional today. Don't really know why. It might be...? Well, I was watching the last episode of one of my favorite shows. And the whole group was kinda being all split up by nothing else but life. =( Growing up, having to move on, all that stuff.
And I can totally relate that to my life right now, yenno? College brings on life. And we're all going our different ways now. It's exciting, but saddening, thrilling, but scary. And while some of the gang is staying local and going community or going to the local state school, others are going further. Much further. You have those going one hour away, then two, then come the ones going 4 hours, or even 6! It;s like...wow. To me, it seems they're starting something new already, starting life, but me, one of the local-hoenm staying students, is gunna have to wait. I don't know why it feels like that. Maybe since the ones moving away won't have theri paretns to lean on as much, but I'm still here with momma and papa. Which is cool. But I suddenly have this desire to go far and start living life!
Which is stupid 'cause I doubt I'm ready to fly completely solo. I'm just going learn to fly right now. I'll wait until I'm good and stable before attempting to live far. There's always grad school right? I should be ready by then. Because if I jump too soon, that'll suck badddddddd.
As much as I'm eager to move on with life, I'm also eager to get the most outta my experiences. And I can't do that if I'm constantly worried about stuff. I"m taking this whole growing up thing slow. While some kids/people might think that I'm "weak" at least I feel good about it.

Overall, I miss you guys already. And I know after this summer, I-we-might never see each other again! But there's 3 of you I want to know forever and I'm so so so fortunate to have met you.
Good luck, I won't always hold back my tears because some people are just dang worth it.