Okay I last left off talking about me fantasy life
in Germany. I loath to be there I love everything about it for some
weird reason. Being a teenager of course I have the whole acne
problem. I hate that my face looks like a pizza and I hate that
everything I try doesn't work. But then again I'm a teen
what more do I except. Now let's get to the sucky part, huh.
Now being a girl I have this horrible thing with my weight I now
work out two times a day in the morning and night which exhausts me
to the bone I am barely eating. Do you know why? Because I just
want the approval of all the stupid people in my school. I just
want people to want to talk to me. If that sounds wrong I know but
I can't help but think, ' If I change this or that it will
make me seem cool'. This really scares me because if I think
this about my appreance than what if some person offers me a
drug would I take it for approval. Inside I know I would say no but
then again my insides aren't exactly nice to me.
My workout routine is extreme. I seem to
think that the more my body screams in agony at me the more fit I
become. I do alot of outrageous thing.
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Okay mom just gave me a aweasome face thing so I
don't really have anyhting to worry about in the face area now.
Also my German Audio Course came in and it's awesome. Anyways
enough about the good things. Along with the whole weight
thing now I'm having difficulty finding a decent friend. A
person who will be annoymous sent me a comment to help me with that
problem and as much as I appreciated that I not good with
friends. Getting a friend is like getting seeing the
eclipse . It doesn't happen that all the time. My
friends are always the complete opposite of me. Only maybe a
few aren't and I don't really hold on to them very
well. So I am very lonely which leads to me feeling horrible about
myself and excersing alot more. I don't know what to do at
this point right now. I feel really horrible.
To Be continued..................( Sorry about the spelling
errors) Check Out my first blog The
Life of a tennager Sucks 1. Thank You for reading.
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