The Woman Within

I am sure that there are several maybe even hundreds of women oout there who are faced with the same situation as I.  I am over half a century old, and still wondering what happen to the woman within?  Who am I exactly now that all my children are grown and living their own lives with their significant other and children.  I have no significant other, however, I have been married three TIMES and have never had to change my monogram  (initials).  Every one of my husbands last name began with H.  That is probably why I have not had a successful marriage to this day.  It's a sign that I need to run the other way if I meet any other men whose name starts with H.  So anyways, let me get back to the woman within.  Who am I?  What is my my fate? My destiny?  I wrote a poem, several years ago while going through menopause, The Woman in the Mirror. Readable at 'www.poetry.com.  So here I am  years later, postmenopausal, living on my own, and wondering where do I go from here?  I have been reading self help books, Joyce Myers, she's awesome.  You can watch here on Cable Channel 5, I don't know the station numbers.  So I am trying to incorporate my Spiritual side into my physical being and be more Godly.  Only I still after a few years, do not know who the real WOMAN  within is.  I have 35+ years in the Medical Industry, but I am not sure that is where I want to be with my career anymore.  I want to do something that is more stimulating, My mind needs to be challanged.  So here I am again, the woman in the mirror, not recognizing myself anymore.  Is there anyone out there in the world who has gone through what I am going through?  Who is at a Crossroad and can't determine which way to go? On That I am going to stop writing, otherwise, this could go on all night. I love to write.