Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Thunder
Today has been the longest mondays in my life. Nothing really happened today. I called my financial aid person today to clear up some stuff about my scholarship. It was pretty simple stuff. Just type in your information and your done.
I haven't heard from my roommate yet. I wonder what he's going to be like, what kind of major he's going to have, if he's nice. I've shopped from some stuff but I really wanted to know what he was going to be bringing before I bought anymore.
I kind of feel sorry for Hayden though. She didn't want a roommate but she's getting one and on top of that she's going to have to deal with Fitz. Fitz has gotten crazy over the past few months. I told you once how he wanted me to be his wingman and after that I haven't spoken to him. I mean honestly we're all still very young and the idea of wingmen just seems creepy. I figured if I was twenty-seven and still single than yeah I would probably take him up on that offer, but I'm not and I won't. But other than the fact that he's been so desperate (and I am not kidding when I say desperate) to get girl he's gotten very creepy. Like pediphial creepy. I just get this vibes from him and I just want to turn and run. Hayden's a little freaked to be dealing with him at school. And I think she's also scared that Fitz might have a thing for her too. He may not even have any feelings for her, but for some strange reason he feels like he needs a girl now. Maybe its because he hasn't had sex in so long or something. I don't know, but its very distrubing.
Also Hayden had her chance. I told her to come to ###### with me but she didn't like the drama teacher. True, he gave a bad first impression but he grew on me and I ended up taking his offer and going to his school. Sure I have to deal with my crazy cousin and Luna who's, well lets just be honest, a masochist slutty drama queen, but we've dealt with them before. It would have only been two more years and I think she could've handled that. Besides if the first semester sucked we could have easily transfered back to ^^^^^^^. I don't know I guess I'm just worried about losing Hayden as a friend during the semester. She's my best friend and I love her like family...its just hard to see that go. It took me a long time to get over her and I've moved on but I still want us to be friends. I just wonder if we'll stay in touch and if we do how long will it be.
Seth is nervous because he might be transfering high schools. Currently he goes to a private christian school but he might be getting transfered to another one. He likes his current school because of his friends, sports, drama, and band etc. but this other school offers so much more like college preperation and more academics. He is literally torn between the two. I've given him the pros and cons but I still don't think he's convinced. On the plus side though at least he's talked things out with his girlfriend, Pearl, and they seemed to be all snuggley now. And that makes me feel better. I was really worried about them a while because they've been on the rocks but I'm relieved to hear they're doing fine now.
Also I've been thinking about my type of girl. I'm not getting like Fitz I just need to adjust my type because before the only kind of girl I wanted was a girl like Hayden. I've been watching Buffy a lot lately to pass the time and I know what kind of girl I want. Amber Benson plays the shy and timid Tara on the show from seasons four to six. I love Tara. She is the embodiment of the girl I want. Someone who is kind and gentle. Someone who is very smart and quirky, sets her own type of humor. Someone who is easy to joke with. Someone who loves to read books on history, poetry, and whatever else. A girl that can hold her own in a conversation about anything and nothing. A person who can look into your eyes and you can see how much she loves you. A girl that brings out the best in me and helps me work on the worst.
Its been raining all day. I love the rain espically when there's a thunder storm. It helps me concentrate, helps me focus my thoughts. The thunder makes me think about my place in the world, and my friends, and everything in between. I love this kind of weather.
And now to do this a bit differently I'm going to leave you with one of my favorite Tara quotes. I'm going to go outside and watch the rain fall.
At peace,
Icarus
Willow: I just want something that's mine, you know? Something that I don't have to share with everybody else. Its nice.
Tara : I am, you know.
Willow : What?
Tara: Yours.
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