Tired of Forgiveness

Have u ever feel that sometimes u are tired to beg for forgiveness?
 I know i do. People made mistakes..maybe sometimes purposely but for me why i want to look for trouble while i couldn't even handle the trouble i have now. Am a troublesome girl..I know what am talking about. Sometimes am tired of the people judge each other because of the mistakes they did in the past. I mean its not fair, they should be given a chance to change. Maybe they had been given a chance but people don't trust that they had change. It's really painful when they giving u that look when u were walking outside and just staring at u like u are some kind of alien.

OK, back to my story. Let me tell u something, I have a soft heart, when i said soft, I mean very very soft heart. Doesn't matter how big or how painful the mistakes that someone did to me, I can forgive them right away if they just hug me and say sorry. I tried to be 'not too soft hearted person' but I can't. Until my best friends said,'I really respect u for your forgiveness heart coz u still love them and respect them even after what they did to u'.

Am just laughing when i heard that. I can't believe that is so obvious. Emmm...I think i should change along with the world. Because if I did a mistake, DAMN!! Its so hard for them to forgive me. I mean WTF!!! That's what i said am tired of begging for forgiveness. What do u want me to do? Kneel down and cut my heart for u. Come on, I have my own dignity.