Quarter life crisis? I'm sure I've heard that phrase somewhere.
Maybe that's what's going on. I'm 27. Got married at 19. Have a
beautiful 6 year old daughter. And just woke up one morning
wondering who on Earth I am? I was this doe eyed energetic 18 year
old with millions of ideas and possibilities for the future and
then it seems like I just woke up one day and I'm sitting here
staring at a computer monitor sitting in an office in a male
dominated industry wondering where on Earth that girl went to?
Don't get me wrong...I've got an amazing family and a job I
love. That's more than a lot of people can hope for. But what
happened to me? Where did I go in the middle of all of this?
So I've started on a new mission. To find my missing self. I went
out and bought a few new shirts, that I am hoping are age
appropriate and much more feminine than what that stranger in the
mirror last had on. It was terrifying shopping for me. It seemed
like everything in the mall was either designed for a 14 year old
or someone over 60! But somehow I managed to find a few cute tops
that amazingly enough make me feel a little more confidant if
nothing else. I've started going to the gym a couple of times a
week. I have to admit it was a bit of a shock when I finally
stopped and really looked at myself....and even more than my
appearance....when did it get so hard to do such simple things. I'm
not THAT overweight but since when did it hurt to even bend
over and touch my toes! Am I *gasp* getting OLD? But wait....I'm
not even 30 yet! That can't be it! Maybe I just need a new hair
style. Hopefully that facial I've scheduled for tomorrow will make
me feel a little less icky. But vanity aside....now that I'm
feeling a little better about the self I see in the mirror what do
I do about those other thoughts....like....what am I going to be
when I grow up!
Yikes!!!!!
Who am I kidding; I am grown up. When did that happen? I don't
have a job....I have a career! A real live...do this until
retirement CAREER! But what about all those thoughts and
plans...vague ideas and dreams that 18 year old girl had? Are they
gone forever? As great as my work is now...do I want to even start
thinking about those again? Or is it only fair to myself....the me
who got lost somewhere along the way to take those dreams out again
and give them a closer inspection. I think if it's something you
really want then you're never too old. But is this something I
really want or just a quarter life crisis?
Anyone else out there wake up one day to find a stranger in the
mirror? And if so....what did you do about it?
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Who's that stranger in the mirror?
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Posted by Fri Sep 26, 2008 3:00pm PDT
Report AbuseDon't panic. Journal...try new things that interest you. What doo you like, NOW...you may have changed.
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Posted by Fri Sep 26, 2008 3:04pm PDT
Report Abusegood for you that you are figuring it out now at 27. I wish I would have had a quarter life crisis. I'm rolling full steam ahead into my mid-life one, although I can delusionally go with the whole "40 is the new 30" and then I really wouldn't be needing to have a crisis until the big 50 rolls around.
I think its just that no matter where we are in our life, we go through these mini-crisis times. You've done so much in your young life, I think its normal for you to feel that way. I remember when I turned 26 I cried thinking gosh I'm heading towards 30. I soothed my soul by watching Interview with the Vampire and falling head over heals in lust with Brad Pitt. Then on the brink of 35 I started using anti-wrinkle creams and freaking out about being "almost 40". Hubby took me out of my funk with one of those 3 stone diamond anniversary bands.
Now just literally months away from the big 40, my latest weapon of choice is going out with my friend and seeing how old all the guys think I actually am. When they say they can't believe I'm not 29, I feel better for a while. And the next day when the margaritas wear off I think my god am I becoming a cougar?
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Posted by Fri Sep 26, 2008 3:10pm PDT
Report AbuseI saw that stranger last year, and I have yet to actually do anything. :(
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Posted by Fri Sep 26, 2008 3:11pm PDT
Report AbuseThere is such a thing as a quarter-life crisis.You married young and had a child.You don't need to panic.Journal,go have a mom's day with friends. There are responsible ways to "find yourself" that includes your family.You are lucky to be happy in your career seems like you and your family need to take a day trip for fun.Maybe you got stuck in a rut routine.
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Posted by Fri Sep 26, 2008 3:16pm PDT
Report AbuseI must say I was where you are in April...I started taking care of myself...I started dieting, keeping myself up, making sure I was ok body, mind and spirit...My appearance was one thing but it was only a temporary fix so my next step was re-connecting with God and just last week I started a journal...I think there is a time in our lives where we get so caught up in everything around us that we forget who we are and our self worth...we just need to pay attention to working on the whole self...My best to you
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