If I could write a letter to my mom...........

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  Posted by Leah Tue Nov 24, 2009 5:56pm PST

  Katie, I have two cousins that are adopted. And another cousin who had to give her baby up for adoption when she was 15 years old. Back then being a single teenage mother was not an option. I know that she aches for that baby (who is over 40 years old now)to this very day.

  I hope you find peace with the life you have. I truely believe that blood doesn't define family, love does :)

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  Posted by TasselLady Tue Nov 24, 2009 6:33pm PST

  Wow Katie. That's really deep. I can understand why you feel that way, and it's natural. I think all kids who have had parents give them up feel like this. I think though, that some parents have a good reason for doing what they do, even if it can hurt sometimes. Maybe they couldn't give their child the life that they felt they deserved, and that maybe some other family could provide for them better. You just never know. Some girls find themselves pregnant too young and too soon, and it can be very overwhelming sometimes. You have alot of guts though, and keep your chin up. Things will work out down the road. You've been through alot. I'm glad to know you. You have a nice Thanksgiving!!! (((((love and hugs))))))!!!! Amy (TasselLady)

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  Posted by *devotion72 Wed Nov 25, 2009 1:47pm PST

  Katie, I understand your pain and you have every right to feel that way. I guess the questions of why linger in the back of your mind. You feel like your life is not complete and wonder why or how it got this way! Trust me being adopted is hard and I have had those same feelings. Although I have children now, my mind still wonders.

  If your ever want to talk I am here, please don't hesitate to stop by!

  Great post...Im going to go refresh my make-up now!

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  Posted by Dee Wed Nov 25, 2009 2:00pm PST

  Katie, My heart goes out to you!! I wasnt adopted though sometimes I wish I were, It would explain alot!!! I agree with TasselLady, back then things were hard. Keep your chin up hon!! If anything just blogging this letter to your mom will make you feel better. And you never know maybe youll get the response your looking for, but dont be holding your breath waiting. Theres a whole lifetime worth living so live every moment and know that at least your adopted parents love you. Hey the picked you, didnt they?! :) That means even more!!!

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  Posted by Valerie Wed Nov 25, 2009 2:01pm PST

  Hey Katie,

  I just wanted to say that I'm sorry about how you feel and everything. I hope that one day you can find out the real answer and maybe have some sort of relationship with your mom. I know it must be very hard for you. I have a have some friends who are adopted and feel your pain. I'm betting that you are an extremely beautiful person with a great personality. You might have heard of this quote and might not really like it but "pain makes you stronger". All this pain that you go through will only make you become a better person and understand how other people might feel at time. I hope you have a good Thanksgiving and never give up on yourself. I know its hard but hold on tight because you are one of the bright lights in the world. And don't feel guilty about how you are feeling, its normal. xoxoxoxoxo----Valerie

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  Posted by Iamhome Wed Nov 25, 2009 2:11pm PST

  Hey Katie. Just to share my story with you. I am adopted too. I have an adopted family. Because of some abusive situations I feel that God has blessed me with an adopted family. I do know who my real folks are and we do keep in touch. I have undergone a lot of inner healing due to the rejection that I felt from my mom and dad, mainly my mom. Decisions she made that have to do with abuse...I've had to forgive her for a lot throughout the years and I'm now 28. I understand your feelings of rejection, but also the feeling of neglect, loss and abandonment! OH! Anger too!! But I've worked through all of that with God's help. I have learned to receive the love that I need through my relationship with God. I will NEVER forget years ago as I cried about my family relationships the scripture God gave me. As I sat on my living room floor alone He gave me a scripture in the book of Psalms that say..."When my mother and my father forsake me, then God will take care of me." Also in the book of Romans chapter 8, it says that we have been adopted by God, that He gave Jesus in order to adopt us into His family! And that we can cry out to Him and call him none other than FATHER!!! A lot of people think that relationship with God means religion but they couldn't be more wrong. What I have come to know about God is that He is my Father, my caretaker, the One who NEVER leaves or abandons me! When everyone in this world leaves and you feel alone who else do you have BUT God? Rather than having a pity party, I see it as an opportunity to draw closer to God and see a purpose out of all the ashes of what I have endured! Beauty does come from the ashes. The fact that it has drawn me closer to Him makes it worth it all! I don't care! I love Him because He has loved me so greatly as His own child! No one could ever love us better! He is unconditional and unchanging! So I hope my entry can help you to see and know that even if your mother doesn't care for you like a mother should...that you don't have to live with that burden of pain. I am living proof that God can take it away, He also will give you others to express a mother and father's love in your life. God bless and move on from all of this! God's got great plans of love for your life! Love Sherry

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  Posted by GirlyGirl© Wed Nov 25, 2009 2:40pm PST

  Katie, my childhood friend that I am still best friends with was adopted. Her father died just shortly after mine, when we were both 12. I never knew until her mother died about 10 years ago. We were sitting in the parlor at the funeral home, and she told me. I asked her one simple question, "would you like to find your birth parents'? and she told me no. She had already lived with her parents, loved them, and lost them. That said it all for me.

  Have a great Thanksgiving. GirlyGirl ♥

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  Posted by Climbing Wed Nov 25, 2009 3:12pm PST

  I'm same as Dee 'sometime I wished I's adopted'

  Also did my research to understand why am I so indiferent of my parents.

  Well I reached the same conclusion as lamhome 'God is unconditional and unchanging.'

  Biological Parents are only our soul's facilitators. That's why there's so many unhappy children in the world.

  There're instances where the children parent the biological parents cause they so immature that you have to take the responsibility for your life and the rest of the sibblings at an early age (6-10).

  My mom didn't have premarital sex. Both my parents are still clueless about parenting and their youngest is 34. We're physically abused till at least 16, and are still verbally abused now eventhough we take care of them. My mom's teacher and my father a researcher. I'm stating their education to tell you that has nothing to do with the parenting or concept of it.

  Biological Parents are just people with flaws like all the others and SOMETIMES THEY GET SCARED OF LIFE they make a decision what sounds good at that particular momment.

  I've become spiritual after all the research I did and now I believe in Reincarnation. You know the scary thing in those books I read that WE ACTUALLY PICK OUR PARENTS

  Because of some mission we need to accomplish in this life time.

  Call me crazy but I believe it since there's no way I'm my parent's child. WE'RE LIFE'S AND GOD'S CHILDREN

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  Posted by Valerie Wed Nov 25, 2009 6:26pm PST

  Katie, Your mother loved you more than you will ever know. The hardest thing a woman could do is carry a child for 9 months and then give it away. If she didn't love you, she would have chose abortion. She loved you so much and knew that you were going to become something important in this world and you deserved to live. She knew she couldn't give you what you needed in order to do that. Maybe she had no family support, maybe she had an abusive family, whatever her reason was...don't ever think it wasn't done without love. That woman will go the rest of her life knowing that you are out there somewhere and you are in a loving family and she will be haunted not knowing if she made the right choice or not, but believe me when I tell you that she did it out of love. Peace and love be with you, Katie.

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  Posted by V Garcia Wed Nov 25, 2009 7:01pm PST

  Katie, you are truly a special person. Someone loved you enough to want to give you a better life by putting you up for adoption. I am the mother of an adopted son and we have talked about these same types of feelings he has experienced over the years. Please know that your birth mother loved you very much and that your adopted parents love you even more! As they looked into your eyes they just knew "you were the one". They love you more than what you can imagine. There is an inner peace that you are seeking and only GOD can give you that peace. Seek his face and his answers and you will experience the peace you deserve. You are special -- don't ever forget that!

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