Confused as Hell and need advice... Warning!!! PG 13!!!! if not R

ok ok, well...I have a "situation". I wouldn't call it a problem you see, but then again I have no idea what I should do or feel. I need advice, and if you have it, tell me..

Ok well like I just started Highschool, and my one sophmore friend John told me one of his freshman friends like me. He wouldnt tell me who it was at first, but eventually he told me his name was Daniel, and the next day at lunch he introduced me to him. Now I was in a rush because I had 7up all over my pant and my shirt was wet (Thank whoever came up with the idea of dark jeans :) ) so I just said "Oh! Your Danny? Hi. My name's.." and ran to the bathroom. The next day, John asked me if I was interested in Daniel, I said sure if Daniel was interested in me. And so then I got a call from John tellin me to call Daniel. So I did. Daniel sounded uninterested and bored!! Plus he was like "John told me you were interested.." I wanted to scream "uh..NO!! He told me u were still interested. anyway Daniel went on to say that lk John told him that he should ask me out but askin me over the phone would make him sound desperate.

Anyway, the next day after physics class, he came uo to me and asked which lunch time I was going to and I said "uh I dont know prolly lk 1 or 2" and he just said "oh ok" and practically ran out of the room. Then at lunch, one of his friends, Alexa, asked me to come sit with them and Daniel. Feelin akward I just nodded and followed them. So at the table I sat next to him and we made small talk...we even hung out all during AE ( the hour and 45 minutes of study hall and lunch, usually everyone just walks around and hangs out haha). It was fun! I laughed alot and I like him...

But see, what gets me, what makes me pause every time someone asks if I like, is some of the stuff he told me.
He told me how he has to take calming pills because he tends to take fast, and basically act like he has ADHD, which is fine, I could care less. But apperently he talks to a shrink, ok I can handle that. Also, He tried to commit suicide...twice. Now THATS what bothers me. I dont get why though. Now before u start sayin "because he tried to commit suicide!" But see, I've tried to too. I tried to OD using pain pills (obviously didnt work, just gave me a HUGE headache...) and I've thought about doing it again, not recently tho. But still...

And apparently he's had 2 girlfriends and one wanted him just as a "f**k buddy" (his words not mine), and another dumped him after they did some sexual (he didnt specify what) activity, which is why he tried to kill himself (he said he really cared about her and was devastated when it happened). But the reason that bugs me is because he had 2 girlfriends while I havent frickin had 1!!! Pathetic I know, now Anyway, Its the fact that he has had um "sexual" relationships while I dont think I'd want to do THAT with him...yet if even At all. Plus obviously Im still a virgin, but I dont know if he is.

Also he even asked me if John had told me that he "swung both ways" and at first I was like "um..." but then I was like "eh ok, it doesnt bother me." But now...I dont know, I kind of think it might. I mean, if he's gay, ok sure have fun! I really dont care. However, since he also likes girls as well as guys...it leads to the question "Why me?" I mean he's stick thin while I'm...not. Im not fat but Im not thin, Im..."normal"-ish. Plus I always see prettier, flirtier, thinner girls hell even guys like that, but it just makes me wonder why the hell would he like me?! And the question that keeps popping up is "If a hot guy walks by will he dump me for that guy?"

*sigh* But we like most of the same music, and the same types of books, well sorta, and he's funny, but I am just confused. Crap! Is it bad that I just wished he was like a guy from my old school Brad? Brad was funny, liked me (maybe), liked sports, happy, irish, funny, kind of akward, straight, liked the same books as me, even the music we liked was alike... Jeez, Im confused.

Ok Please help me. If your first instinct is to call some hotline and say "this girl needs help and so does her freind" please dont. I dont want to come home from school and see random people saying Im crazy, depressed, whatever! Basically if that is you, then just leave ok!!! Anyway, just leave a comment saying what you thought, are thinking w/e. OR advice for me! That would be swell haha!! Or if you think im "bs-ing" you, then tell me. HAHA ok, thanks