Desperately Seeking Sanity - A Tangled Web of Unrequited Love

It all started back in July when I became friendly with an old family friend who was recently divorced. The first conversation we had on the phone was amazing and after we hung up I thought "This is the man I am going to marry." It caught me off guard and I laughed it off as one too many glasses of wine.

The next day we decided to meet. It was one of the best evenings of my life. It just so happened to be the 4th of July and we hung out in my parents neighborhood drinking, laughing, and talking. We ended up at my house and after a bunch of chit chat I had to do it. I leaned in for the kiss. When our lips touched my body was overcome with an electrical charge so intense I almost jumped. My heart swelled with intense passion for this man who I knew very little about in just an insant. The feelings were so intense that after just a few moments I pulled away. I was completely unprepared for that.

"I have to tell you something" he said staring deep into my eyes. "I'm in love with another woman. She doesn't love me, but you need to know that my heart is somewhere else."

The electricity began to fizzle and what he said played through my mind over and over again. This couldn't be. I sat there in silence for several minutes before I knew what to do. I looked up and leaned in for another kiss. It was more amazing than the first and lasted much longer. We fell asleep on the couch in each others arms that night. It was perfect.

Four months later I have fallen head over heels for this man. He is everything to me - everything. The love I feel for him surpasses anything I've ever felt for another human being. It's incredible. However, nothings changed. He's getting over the other woman but he doesn't love me. We are the best of friends. The most incredible of lovers. He knows I'm in love with him.Desperately in love with him. I would give anything and everything for him to be mine . . . I would give up my life if it meant making him happy.

Tonight he told me he was going to go on a date with another girl. My heart dropped and he instantly felt bad . . .

"Hun . . ." he said and put his hand on mine. "You're the only person I trust. I have to be able to talk to you about this stuff . . . You're my best friend."

I fought back the tears, swallowed the lump in my throat, and fought through the pain of my heart tearing just a little more.

He's my best friend. We do everything together. Please somebody give me advice. Tell me what to do! Is there hope? Or am I killing myself for nothing?

A Victim of Unrequited Love