Everytime I open up and talk to you...

I realize each time I do that it's something I shouldn't do. I realize a little more each time I open up to you that I cannot confide in you about anything and to boot I have now learned that I cannot trust you!I If  I can't trust you with account passwords how in the f--- am I supposed to trust you with my heart? It's been shattered into 5 million pieces and everytime I go out of my way to pull a broken piece of it out for you, you destroy that piece.Dignity,intergrity huh? What? I lost those things a long f--- ing time ago because they came into the raw mix of pure survival.So those things you can' take cause they haven't existed for a long time!But what I do give you of myself is just not good enough! And ya know what that's ok atleast for once I took a CHANCE and gave it again so I do know that I am still capable of that of taking, a chance, a risk,a shot , and a stab at something once again. Yes it is an amazing thing to find out that I can still feel something for someone cause honestly I didn't think I had it in me anymore nor did I think i was capable of it. Alex