HMMM! I have been accused of and read a lot of s--- and comments here this week...

I have been told I am on an emotional rollercoaster ride. Agreed on that one! from hell as a matter of fact. Then basicly told to do myself a favor and not post hmm like a trainwreck I guess.I have been accused of being Jealous hmm sometimes yes of people that have they're s--- together at times of that I am other than that not so much you work with what you got. Egotistical This one almost made me fall over laughing!!! I second guess myself a lot and question the hell out of myself? People I guess have one huge misperception of me THAT ONE IS IT!!!! I llok at it this way you have to have a certain confidence about yourself and hold your head high and keep going no matter what even when you feel like breaking down. NOBODY ELSE HAS EVER LOOKED OUT FOR ME OR MY BEST INTREST! I mean from a very young age too. I am a fighter will always be a fighter and will always get back up when knocked down even if I feel like laying there for a bit. So if me caring a little bit about myself which took years for me to do by the way because really I didn't for a very long time!!! Is EGOTISTICAL Then so f*&king be it! Self centered...That one is comical too as I am always doing for others and putting their wants and needs before my own!!! BOSSY well ya win on that one yeah I'm kinda sick of people thinking they can just walk the hell all over me NOPE! Not gonna happen. I am the most guarded person you are ever going to come across. My friends are a handful but would lay down their life for me and I for them. My family is many  and we will just say at times it's very difficult the whole situation.DON'T GET ME WRONG I HAVE HAD MY SHARE OF F**KING PEOPLE OVER AT TIMES EVERYONE HAS...But for the longest time it has not been in my nature and/or motives in any way. It's just not a part of me and who I am anymore.God is going to judge me and harsh for somethings I might add! I was not always this good of a person. I have met and come across a lot of really cool people in this lifetime too. You know what they say people are for a reason and a season... I have been ran down ridiculed stabbed in the back confronted and from people that ummm I don't know.Also by some that I thought were the closest to me lesson learned and will NOT be repeated. None of that matters though. I don't stress what I can't or don't have control over. The only things you truly have control over is yourself THAT'S IT!!! At times too I know that that is even questionable and hard for most and if you say no well then you're lying.For those that see things from my point of view  or atleast just can accept it (MY views and opinions for what they are I thank you for that!) Not everyone that I respond too has had a positive comment either but it's when they challenge me to look at something from a different view or perspective...I REALLY DO THINK ABOUT STUFF LIKE that! Not the sh*t where you're calling me egotistical cause it's so far off base trust me on this. Alright just had to vent I'm out goodnight everybody sleep well. I HAVEN'T ALWAYS...BUT I DO NOW!!! Alex