How Do I Deal With My Polygamist Self

As a result of years of confused thought and determination to realise why I do not want to date anyone I came to the somewhat dramatic conclusion that I am and always was a polygamist. The problem was that subconsciously I was not willing to commit to only one person; therefore, I've commited to nobody. And having realised that I am a polygamist I do not dare date anyone because I, to be honest, haven't got the guts to tell said date what I am! This is a case of "love may have been" provides a better view than "love's definitely not going to be."

I have, therefore, wasted a great deal of my life thinking about romantic relationships in completely the wrong way. I feel the need to blame somebody for this disaster. But who, exactly, should I blame?

One thing I do know is that the law does not allow polygamous marriages and I am certain that this caused me to ignore and suppress my true nature. So I can definitely blame politicians. But it was me that ignored the early signs that if I meet a new love, I want them to be an addition. I just can't do that state of mind that says, "Out with the old, in with the new." Why should I throw away a perfectly good model merely because I've got a new one?

So I ignored myself; that's my fault. I don't dare mention it; that's my fault. But what should I do about it?

Maybe I should campaign to have the law changed but I can't imagine that I'd have many supporters.


Yours Truely,

                           Suppressed and Oppressed (And Depressed)