Ok so, he wasn't my boyfriend, but my best friend. I
thought we'd be friends for forever. We'd talk for hours, I
could tell him about anything about everything and vice versa. I
could tell that feelings were over-reaching friendship and had
started to hit the love target...and I was ready for it. But
at the same time I was scared, I didn't know if he
liked me the same.
Of course there was the flirting and hints from his side that said
"hey, i like you" or even the direct "date me,"
but i didn't know if he joking or if he really knew what
he was asking for. There was even jealousy between us when the
other spoke about an interest in someone new.
So where did it go wrong you ask?
Well...I showed him my picture, then it was all over. I had
set the last piece of my puzzle on the table and was left
vulnerable. I knew I wasn't going to be what he
expect...this perfect pretty girl or the type that he had always
told me he was attracted to(brunette barbie), but I had hoped
that he would like me for me...the same as before. I
guess I also knew that things would change and be awkward
between us after he saw me. He even went as far to say that I was
"weird" (not weird looking lol but i guess in my actions)
after showing him. I mean, I didn't change. And how am I
suppose to act when I'm putting myself out there to be
judged(not by a stranger but by someone I love). So now,
it's over we don't talk to each other. I pushed the guy
that really liked me away for him. I'm left alone as before
and I don't have any one, not a best friend or a
boyfriend. I don't know what to do with myself.
Any advice or comments? Do you have a similar story?
