Is it too late to apologize?

Uncomfortable sleeping in the same bed....Uncomfortable letting him see you naked... Is this how it should be with your husband? This all started when my husband ended his term in the army on July, 17th. We had moved from New York to Illinois at the beginning of June and were hoping to move to Wyoming soon after that. I have never liked it here in Illinois. He ended up cheating on me with his ex girlfriend while I found out because of the phone records and online bank account. He denied it and then finally admitted it later. When all of this began I told him we need to work things out and I will forgive him for everything if he would work things out with me becuase we are married. He had told me then that he needed time to figure things out. I was at his house at the time and told him I was not going to stay here with him one night and have him stay with her the next. I just couldn't do that to myself. So I gave him time. Two months to be exact. I didn't call him. The only time I had talked to him durring that time was when he was asking me if we could go to the courthouse and get the papers signed or if we could go through the storage unit and get my things. Then all of a sudden one day after all of this time he tells me that he doesn't want to get a divorce and that we should get back together. When I asked him why he left in the first place he always says "I don't know, I just realized how unhappy I was without you." I never expected that. I had no clue he was going to make that decision. So in the meantime while he is screwing his ex girlfriend and another girl who used to be my friend until she gave my 45 year old dad a strip tease, I was hanging out with another guy. Just hanging out, he kissed me once and that was all that we had done. I told my husband that I like this guy a lot. I have been telling the complete truth to both of them this entire time. He is a good guy and no matter how many times I was piss drunk at his house he never tried anything with me. We talked about everything. We connected on a completely different level. My family wants me to get back together with my husband. He bought a house within the two months we were seperated. In the town that I never wanted to stay in. This is a simple decision if I just could organize my thoughts enough to know what to do. I can say "I don't want to get back together with Alex", so easily, but that's not the easy way.... The easy way is to get back together with him. I don't know what to do. I'm now resorting to blogging on the internet about my personal life.. obviously I'm in need of help.