He jokes with me and says, "You could have had the car when it was
all new and shiny; now you want it and it's all old and broken." He
gives me one of his cute smiles and I smile back and explain to
him...
I could have had him 2 years ago, when he was tanned and toned.
When he was undeniably the "tall, dark, and handsome" guy. He cared
so much about what other people thought of him; his perception of
what a "real" man looked like required him to go to tanning salons
and lift weights for months. I'm not going to lie, his arms were so
big that they stretched the seams of his collared short sleeve
shirts. I wanted him... physically. But I felt like he was in a
phase and I did not understand him. He was beautiful on the
outside, but oh so sad and dark on the inside. I wanted him to let
me into his world, but his walls were up and each time i got a peek
through those walls, it was so hard. Only when he was with me would
he share his thoughts with me, be sweet to me, be sentimental.
Today, he is not as toned and definitely not as tan. And he has so
much facial hair that it grows back by the end of the day. I don't
facial hair; it feels like velcrow on my soft face and leaves me
with a pink irritation around my lips where he kisses. He sweats a
lot (but thank god it doesn't smell!). He doesn't shower everyday.
He sleeps in his hair products at night. He's grumpy in the morning
right when I wake him up. He always gets a grande latte at
starbucks, which he religiously makes trips to everyday. He's
quiet, shy, reserved. But I love him. All of him. More than I ever
imagined I would love anybody. Why? Because he is the sweetest,
funniest, most loving person i have come to love. He always makes
me feel beautiful and makes me smile. He is real with me; he is
good to me. He reaches back to hold my hand when he walk. He gives
me sweet butterfly kisses on my shoulders, neck, cheek.
He was never the type to show affection or even murmur those 3
words. I had to say it first because I felt it so strongly. Then he
said it back and my heart exploded with joy and happiness. He was
never the type to do any of this PDA stuff. He was just too manly
to do that. But now, he genuinely loves me and says "I love you"
without worrying about what other people would think. He doesn't
give a second though to holding my hand.
God, I am so happy. He is so beautiful to me. i am so happy he put
down his walls and let me into his sweet arms. Finalmente! I have
found love, and he loves me back!
So, no, baby, I love you just the way you are. I don't care about
how you look now. It is the love that you give to me
unconditionally that has got a hold of me. It is you.
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Posted by Sat Aug 23, 2008 2:13am PDT
Report Abusecongradulations hope you enjoy the rest of your life as happy as you are right now again (congats)
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Posted by Mon Sep 22, 2008 4:15am PDT
Report AbuseI have been dating this married man for the past four years. Going out with a married man was never my intentions. At first we were very good friends. He made me laugh, and I know that the same was happening to him. Somehow, I filled a certain part of his love life, there was something missing in his marriage life.
One day we decided to go out on a date. We had lunch and later caught a movie. It was and action movie, nothing that could have lead to what happend after that. We left the movies holding hands, how did that happen, I don't know. On our way to the car, we were like holding hands more tightly. Before we got in the car we hugged like never before, I couldn't let go of him and so was him.
On our way home, we were so quite, no one said anything to any one. He dropped me at my place, as I was about to leave the car, I thought, no, this feeling, I cannot resist. Quickly I offered him to come in for coffee, and he agreed. I opened the gates and he parked his car inside. I opened the door and he followed. As I was about to switch on the kettle to prepare the coffee that I offered him, I heard someone grab my waist. It was him, I turned around and we started kissing.
We made good love. From that day onwards, I never want to live without sex with him, and he felt the same way too. We were together for four years, since April 2004 to May 2008. He kept on telling me that he loved me and he can never cope without me in his life. I believed him 'cos I felt so strongly about him. I know I loved him, I just don't know if he really loved me too. I'm the one who ended the affair, it was difficult but I knew it was something I had to do.
May the fifth is his birthday, I told him, I want to make love to him one last time on the day. We did, and it was so beautiful. He asked me if I was serious about leaving him and I said yes. He told me he loves me and he doesn't want to lose me. I gave him an altimatum, he had to choose between me and his wife, and I told him he doesn't have to give me an answer there and then. He stopped calling me and I also did not call him. One day after about 3 weeks since the last time we met. I just smiled at him and he smiled back at me.
He asked me why I stopped calling him. I told him the same reason he stopped calling me. He asked to take me out and I said no, 'cos I knew the only reason he want to take me out was to sleep with me and he thought I could not resist him, not knowing that I no longer want to be part of the affair. He asked why do I have to end the relationship,I told him it doesn't have to end, he still have a chance to make things happen between us, all he can do is choose, but since it took him so long to do that I already know who his choice was and he doesn't have to say it and I respect his choice.
Already there was this guy who was making a move on me, I had to do something or else I wouldn't have coped with the loneliness. We started going out soon after I have dumped this married man. He asked me if I was seeing anyone and I told him no and that was the truth. He wanted to know for how long was I out of a relationship, and I told him four years, I counted all the years I was seeing this married man, and that was a lie, to me all those years I was dating this married man was like living a lie and I didn't have to count them.
To think that it was not my intention to start dating so soon, I have never felt so wanted. Thid new guy is so into me. It's only a few months and already he's introduced me to all the people that matters to him, his parents, siblings, friends, colleagues, you name them all. Two weeks into our relationship, his brother asked me not to break his heart, they are so close and he says no woman has ever made his brother so happy like I do. He has never seen him so happy with anyone as he is with me, but I thought it is just a brother looking after a brother. The same happened with his friend, whilst we went out for drinks, my man excused himself and went to the bathroom and then a friend of his whispered in my ear to say, "I don't know what you did to this man, but whatever you did, keep doing, he is now forever happy, he haven't said much to me about you but I can see for myself what being with you does to him."
I'm happy, you know the feeling of you loving someone and that someone loving you back, I never thought I'll ever get over that married man I dated for so long, I've learnt that there is time for everything, you just have to be patient, if you think you are loneny now, wait until your prince charming comes your way. I didn't see this coming. I went into this relationship only because I wanted to forget about somebody else, I never thought that someone out there could love me for real.
I think God rewarded me for finally making a good decision by dumping a married man. If you do good, you will be rewarded, we all make mistakes, if we accept that what we are doing is wrong and accept our mistakes, at the end of the day we will see good things coming our way.
Stay happy....
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Posted by Wed Mar 11, 2009 7:03am PDT
Report AbuseSo glad your love affair with the married man ended well.
I know how you felt and I ,myself walked away from a 6 yr. affair with a
married man but after 2 yrs. of trying I just couldn't do it so the guy I was
dating I walked away from and the guy who use to be married is now
divorced and we are back together.
Good luck with your new man.
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