Page 21 love letter to my soulmate...

read the commitment out loud. He grabbed my left hand it felt uncomfortable, a loud voice said,“ watch out”. I clinched my right hand ready to break his jaw if he decided to get weird. Rage consumed me. My brother the dark one was angry and he was not going to let go with out a fight. The man from Dover then asked me if I was willing to turn my life back over to the Creator. A voice rang out “you will never succeed.” a quieter voice ran through me “be still and know that I am” . It was your love that continued to push me. I didn’t fully understand the commitment I had just made until many months later. I had no idea the lengths that I would have to go to be returned to sanity. When we got up off our knees he told me to go back to my room where I would find a 5 subject note book in my desk draw. I wanted to know what he had planned. I always wanted to know. I was always trying to figure everything out. I wanted to know the outcome. I still wanted control. I didn’t know how to let go. I trusted nothing except the negative voices of insanity that marched through my mind. I wanted to go to you but I knew it wasn’t time. A quiet voice ran through me “if you love her you will stay away from her”. I thought the only way to love was to control. A quiet voice ran through me “you are going to learn a different way. When I got back to my room, I called the powerful rubbish man