Okay in my opinion the most scary words in the dictionary:
"Toxic relationship". There is two reasons I am
writing this blog. The first I met this girl online that went
into detail the scope of her toxic relationship. Also second my
toxic relationship ex messaged me with the plea "Can we
finally be friends?". Okay boys and girls here it goes
my first rant in the blog world.
Welcome and I would like to tell you all a story. Now once
upon a time in a not so distant past (5 years or so) there was a
young and stupid girl that thought most in the world "She
needed a man." So this girl was desperate and was
willing to go out with any tom, dick or harry that was willing (not
necessarily able). Searching and hunting, she came across a
person that could fulfill that wish of needing a man. So she
pounced and captured this man. However unknowing to this
young girl she was the one that was captured or better phrased
trapped. This relationship turned toxic on day one.
What she thought she wanted really was not what she was
getting. However she was stupid and uninformed on boys
(because like many this was her first man). This man (or
better stated a boy pretending to be a man) slowly tore down every
ounce of self esteem. Stating what she did not have every
second, stating he wish she was someone else, stating ways she was
not pleasing him and diverting his attention to others. So
trying to keep up in pleasing him she rushed things she was not
ready for and became someone she no longer knew. She felt she was
worthless and no better than a speck of dirt. Finally a bell went
off in this girls head. *DING* *DING* *DING* "What
am I doing?" She screamed to herself. She quickly began
setting things straight. First Step: Dump the guy and
break off all contact with him. She was going to take back
who she was. Step two: Who am I? and more
importantly Who am I without a man? Step by Step this girl
took back her life, took back her independence, and took back her.
So who is this girl now? ..... Is She back to what she was before
the toxic relationship?
Simply this girl is now Happy and Free. Free to roam and
enjoying life. She is free from all toxic relationships and
is better than what she was prior to the toxic relationship.
She finally looks in the mirror and sees the woman she was
always meant to be. She finally loves herself and NO she does
not communicate with her ex. Why should she, She does
not want to go backwards only forwards.
So moral of the story boys and girls. Never be in a toxic
relationship. They rip at your soul, your heart and your
mind. Everyone deserves to be happy no matter what. A
relationship should make you feel better about yourself but not
necessary to your existence on the planet. I wrote this to
all those out there that needed to know they are not alone. I
wrote this to all those who wanted to know they too can get out and
be a better person for it. Stay Strong Women and Men!!!! Your
all worth your weight in gold.