why does this have to bother me so bad?

so I'm going to try my damnedest not to mention any aforementioned names in this post...ahem...so the same men are involved....so this man, that I exceedingly like, even though he has been just my friend with benefits for way too long to remember exactly how long tells me that the he saw the other guy who I though was supposed to already be gone from my vicinity...anyhoo, sweet, yet unyielding man #1 tells the jerk that I am pissed off about how I have been treated...and he apparently talked s--- about me!  As if making me feel worthless and depressed weren't enough...he has to step on my toes with my current lover who I give way too much too with too little in return...just f------ swell...sometimes I won't to go jump off the Golden Gate Bridge....so I can't say names because mi amore tells him he won't tell me that he saw him...yeah right, like he's going to be my friend with benefits for years and not tell me...god, what a jerk off!!!  I want to go to the city and find him before he goes back to where I left from to find him and b---- slap him across his face in front of whatever skank he's f------ !