Break Ups Are the WORST!!!!

This is my very first time writing a blog. I feel as though I have all these feelings I need to get out. So here goes nothing. I recently found out my boyfriend, now ex boyfriend, has a fiancee and a wife. Now he and I have been friends for over 7 years and I never knew about this fiancee. I feel so betrayed, hurt, sad, mad. I am angry. I have so many different emotions and feelings. I dont know what to do anymore. I obviously still love him and I cant turn that emotion off. I wish I could, but I cant. I feel like he just disrupted my life and just left me hanging. It sucks really bad. I dont know who to talk to about this because its pretty embarrassing to me.

How do I begin to heal from this situation?? my heart is broken in so many pieces. I feel as though I cant go on. I saw a future with this man and now hes gone out of my life. I dont know what to do.