I have been happily married for several years. My husband is an absolute wonderful man, father, and friend to me. We have never had any major problems that would sway either of us to stray outside of our marriage. Genuinely, we are compatible and complimentary to each other's personalities. Honestly, I would consider us an ideal couple.
However, I have always had a deep love for my first love. It is a love that has sustained through time and relationships. I have not been intimate with this person since we parted ways many many years ago, but we have remained friends. There is something special about him that I have never been able to get over. We are both married and have kids with our respective spouses. In no way would I suggest that he is the one that got away, because I am truly blessed by a wonderful husband and family. And I am very much happily married.
Nevertheless, I know I love this person more than the endearing love you have for friends. Sometimes my heart aches for him and the love we once shared and the connection we have today. I stop short of convincing myself that I am not in love with him, because I wonder how that is possible. I am confident that he too shares this love for me, but respects our current life as it is worlds apart but infinitely bound.
Is it possible to deeply love two people at the same time?