It's been a few days since I written last. I went on a road trip with V and Lisa. We had to go to Virginia, and then we went to see my Mom in NC. The trip was not good. It wasn't like our road trips. Not much stopping. The drive thru North Carolina was extremely depressing. We would have had a blast there. There were cotton fields on both sides of the road. I pictured us stopping, you going out in the middle of the field and picking some cotton and I would be taking pictures of it all. There were some real little houses out there too! I thought about how you would would be saying we could live in one of those. I even saw graffiti on a brick wall that was nothing but a spray painted J W. How could I not think of you? Thoughts of you consume my brain. I want you so much. I miss you Jim. I'm not doing good without you.
I pray for you every night. Are you ok? Not knowing if you are ok is tough. I hope you are warm, safe, free and fed. I want to be with you.
I may have to move. I'm trying to stay but if I don't get another job soon, I'll have to. I still have your picture in my bra, near my heart and I'm still wearing my ring. There isn't anyone else for me Jim. You were my ONE. There is no where to go now. Where is my Mr. Magoo?
I bought a Stones CD and listen to it everyday in the car. It doesn't have our song on it. I have to get another one. You know the song and the words are still true. I love you Jim, take care of yourself and stay free.
When things get tough, try thinking about all the fun we had. The love we shared was incredible. Nothing like I have felt before. North East, the front door, the school parking lot, riding down Joppa Farm Road and the Outlet Dressing Room. Just to name a few! Are you smiling Babe? I'm smiling and crying! We weren't done Jim!
I love you so much Jim and living without you is not working for me. I don't know what to do.
I'll keep praying for you Jim. Be safe!
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