LEARNING to RELAX

I have been going through a bit of 'dating stress'. I am following some advice and seeing a few people. I noticed I was getting a little bit stressed, because I felt, hmmm, well I didn't know what I was feeling. Then yesterday I realized I was putting undo stress upon myself. I started visualizing things in my mind. What if's and what did I want's. I realized then and there, even though you can be fond of several, that doesn't mean you have to commit to anyone. In fact, I started realizing I like being single. I can do and see who ever I want. My decisions and mine alone. I came to the conclusion that I was not ready to say I 'L' or I do or anything that even smelled of commitment. Funny one of the guys I am seeing was the one who opened my eyes to this. I like this freedom I have. If I don't feel like doing anything I don't have too. I want all to know that I do pay my way or offer to pay my part on dating and excursions. I think offering makes the guy feel he isn't being used. That wasn't the point of seeing more than one person. I have discovered that by seeing more than one, I am exploring my emotions more closely. I find that by this excercise I will know when 'Mr. Right' is in front of me. Thanks for the advice my friends. I am discovering a whole new me and a whole new world in the soberiety I am residing in. Still feel the same about recovery. It is awesome to know what reality is.

Peace out and in all that is right-good.