Moving on...

Hey everyone. So I could use a little advice. Suffice to say, I just got out of an 18 month relationship. At one point, I really thought he was "the one"...but by the end, I'd found out he was still happily married (even though he'd shown me separation papers he found on the internet) and had never had any plans to leave. We're both active duty military, we work on the same base. If you're wondering how I didn't know he was married, it's easy when we've both deployed and we both travel to different regions to train. He finally told his wife about us because when I realized that everything, and I mean every freaking word, he ever told me was a lie, I also realized he was going to go right on doing the same thing with someone else. I told him one of us was telling her that day, if he took the initiative, it would probably be better. So he told her, and she called me. We talked for two hours. I'm actually glad we talked, because up until I knew the whole story, I believed him when he said we weren't together because I was the one too immature, or I liked to flirt with other guys too much, or he just couldn't trust me. It was always me, and he blamed my age (more than a decade younger than him). And, stupidly, I believed him. So the great thing about this conversation is that I learned that everything he said about his family, and most of his military history, was made up. So I'm grateful, really, for not feeling like I wasn't good enough anymore. I felt like that for over a year, and it's quite the relief to not hurt like that anymore. At this point, I've even started to deal with the pain of the betrayal. I even stopped thinking about accidently hitting him with my car when he was running on base. Of course, now my mentality is, if you can't do something for me, I don't even want to talk to you, because you're just going to lie and cheat anyway. I see this idiot daily, and I KNOW the guys at work will be more pissed that I affected his life then the fact he lied to me (I mean really, he had me looking at wedding dresses and took me shopping for rings, saying he wanted to know what to buy when it was the right time. I am not insane. Really. I just seem that way right now because I think my head is going to explode). I work with all males. Literally, on my compound there are three other active duty women. Every male I see just makes me want to punch something. I gues the biggest reason I'm upset is because I want to have a kid and I just wasted all this time. I move every three years, so it's like I have this very strict timeline to meet someone, determine they're sane and we're compatible, and get married. I also have to time pregnancy to not affect my deployment cycle, because that affects promotions. I'm not going to have another great opportunity time-wise for almost five years. I'm so frustrated because I feel like I let him steal part of my future from me. Also, seeing him daily is going to drive me insane. Totally, and completely. How am I supposed to be dealing with this? The only thing good to come of it is I'm running/lifting more--I'm going to look amazing in a few weeks!