True LoveThis post comes with so many thoughts and feelings. I could start this story as a friend of a friend who...but I choose not to. I need to let the world know, how I feel.
I never thought I would have strong feelings for a man, so fast, solid and strong. They say things that seem to be too good to be true generally are. Well, this is not too good to be true because love always comes with complications. I am very afraid to lose this man. He is everything I ever wanted and we have mutual feelings for each other. His words are genuine and caring. I look forward to each and every message he sends, as he looks forward to mine. A connection so close that I can detect when something is wrong. We have the same dreams, thoughts, and desires. To one day be together just sharing ideas, thoughts, writing together, and just being in each others company.
He is mature, family oriented, and caring. Did I mention, he is also extremely creative? Everything sounds almost perfect, right? Well it isn't. I am trying to put my life back together after a divorce. I am very comfortable being single, but want to explore my feelings for him. He lives miles away, while we talk every day, we have not met in person. He has some things he needs to handle, as well.
Some people judge others by what they have, material wise or what they have accomplished. I feel that is very shallow. Women tell me look for this or that, a man with money, a lawyer, a physician etc. I cannot look for someone based upon their profession. I highly believe in attraction and finding a soul mate. I cannot be attracted to someone for money or an ulterior motive. While I respect diverse cultures, I could not imagine being involved in an arranged marriage. People in those situations say that they learn to love each other, but I think there is a huge difference between loving someone and being in love.
I want to be in love with my soul mate forever. Form a mutual bond of genuine love, respect, and open communication. Love that comes before a sexual relationship. That is where I am now with this man. I am beginning to fall, and I don't want it to stop. I want to explore our feelings. Be safe and secure in his arms.
P.S., I think I love him.