Days can be really long for the stay at home mother of a preemie. Taking care of Kenna is not like caring for a regular newborn. Kenna takes five different medications over the course of the day, a variety of doses, differing times, day and night. She is on oxygen at all times, and with that comes the monitors. And while I love having her home, sometimes I just need that period of time where she naps to get anything accomplished...like a hot meal, a shower, exercise, a potty break, or some of my writing.
On this particular day, I couldn't get her to sleep for anything. I rocked. I sang. I had her in her swing. I let her play on the floor. I even tried to mesmerize her with the television. Then, finally, her eyes closed. I laid her down ever so delicately and made to back away. It was late evening by now. Before I could even get her tucked in, she rolled to her side, lifted her hand as if to say...just give me a moment. Seconds later, Kenna was wide awake, smiling, and ready to play again. She did it with such personality that I couldn't help but laugh.