Christmas Should Be a Happy Time

know I had posted that I was looking for some help for Christmas, but sometimes I have a tendency to feel sorry for me……I am elderly on Social Security, it has been some time since I have been able to really go Christmas shopping for my great grandchildren. The joy of picking out that one special gift for them, the anticipation of their reaction when they open their gifts. But I forget that even at their young age they know I can't get them anything, and they seem to be alright with it. They enjoy being here with me, having time with me, they love me and they know how much I love them. I try to make each of them feel so special. When they hug me and tell me they love me, that is the best gift I could ever get, and it doesn't have to be Christmas to get it. So, I know they probably feel the same way, when I smother them with hugs and kisses. For me I guess it is Christmas year round.
Maybe it is selfish of me, but I do miss the giving of gifts and watching their faces when they open them. i am so grateful, thankful, that they have loving parents, a warm home to live in, food to eat, and toys to play with, a warm coat and decent clothes. I then imagine myself, being able to find some of those certain families, who won't have a Christmas dinner, or a tree or stocking hung with care. I imagine the children waking up on Christmas morning, with no toy or gift to unwrap. My heart cries when I think about this, I am blessed. I imagine how the parents feel, on that morning watching the faces of the children that Santa forgot. And I wish I could find a way to make that day special in some way for them. A ham for dinner, candy in the stockings, a toy under the tree. I wish for this. I wish I could, I wish I might, give a Santa Christmas, to them this Christmas Eve nite……….
I wonder if the toys I donated to the church or community center, cheered may children this year. I wish I could have given more. I hope that there are people out there, that take the time from their busy life, and ask their family and friends, if they have toys, gifts, clothing for some needy family, one that is praying or silently crying that somewhere someone can help them wake up to laughing and happy children because they too, found a gift from Santa. To these children and families, they don't care if it is donated, used. They are happy because they have something now they didn't have hope of having before.
So, for today, I will put aside my wishful thinking and selfish wishes, and hope more children will have what they never thought they would have.
Merry Christmas to all and thank you God for my blessings and please help those who don't have a lot of hope……….I love you Lord.