Where We're Going

Where is it going? Amidst the busy lives and demands of what we do, I am caught with this question inevitably somewhere in my thoughts. I know how these words could lead us; it will be a difficult choice. With what's at hand, with what's real… the answer seems there. NOWHERE.

I could not figure it out though, that in spite of what I know, the heart wishes for more. Behind the pessimism, I long to find myself persuaded to carry on, to believe that there's a chance for us to overcome life's difficulties and be one. The moments when I feel so alone can be dreadful, because I am getting use to this.. Too independent and feeling nothing. I fear the change this brings me, and the more that I gain the strength over fear of loss I wonder if you love me more?

The goals in our lives are clear. We travel on these roads and in control. Dealing with our issues about our own separate lives consume us more.. I could not imagine how people can work it out in their relationships despite the time they spend for what is called for.

Helplessly, it seems to be so sorry to realize that we only have a limited time making this relationship grow. And reasons perhaps are weak to put it on top of our to-do list. I could not blame us, the circumstances that we have maybe.

Then why the intense and determined feelings should come to fade? When in the past nothing seemed enough to break it apart. The reality did not matter because we deceive what's real. The distance we made closer to let go.

I guess standing still in this changing worlds we've got would need us to get rooted to reasons why we have to. Sometimes I am so self-assured about the principles I've learned to live with.. That people come and go.. that everything changes, and must come to its end. I guess, I have learned to endure the truths about life that there's nothing else to expect. Everything that started has to end.

The fairy tale of love never exists. But in the depths of my soul, I wish Love is real. That out there, we know we can have it.. Courageously beyond time, and hardships and circumstances. I like to believe that this is real..

August 1, 2012