I'm nearly 32 weeks with this baby boy. It's been such a roller coaster of emotions and intensity since it's high risk, and quite honestly I've never really felt the guilt of another pregnancy after loss. Even knowing this baby is a boy.
I lost my twin boys last year at 20 weeks, and 7 months later I was pregnant again. I remember several people kindly telling me, "You may feel guilty, but it doesn't change what happened so try not to!" I kept waiting for the guilt of carrying another baby to sink in, but it never did. Sadness at the loss? Yes. A hard time really connecting to this one the first two trimesters? Absolutely. Back and forth emotions knowing I was supposed to be knee deep in two sets of everything and instead I was just experiencing pregnancy symptoms all over again? Yep.
Never guilt though.
Until last week.
Sam and I took Bella to Babies R Us to get a few things. We don't have anything but some essentials from Bella, and I felt like I was ready to startRead More »from I'm Pregnant Again After Miscarrying — and I Feel so Guilty